something came in my mind... just a click but it is rather confuse

I was playing game, and listening to songs, suddenly something click in my mind.... and say... what the hell wrong with me..... At first I don't even border about this matter... but after... a few minutes..... I start thinking about the things the click in my mind... It is rather confusing.... but till now I still do not have any answer yet....

I was wondering, I have live for 24 years how come the women that enter into my life is the same.... no matter towards my god sister or my girlfriend..... when I think back everything... it tell me that their... character and pattern are the same.......

I have 2 god sister their..... character is the same.... but anywhere..... for the time being.... now I am only concern with the god sister that I love the most but also the one that hurt me the most... any where i was asking myself that... why my sister say the love i gave her is to much... but in another hand my ex say to me... my love towards her is to little... I am really confusing what I should do.... sometime.. I just want to say ... that my love to you will never ever change... because...... you will always be the one that I love the most.....

Recently I want to date a girl... I hope that.... she would not be the same as them... what I ask for.... is I hope that... on my birthday... I can see my sister... appear in front on me..... Anyway... for the time being I just need to do what i suppose to do... but no matter what my love towards you my love would never ever change.......