i really don't know wht to do...........i am really tired of this i can take it anymore..........i am going to crazy soon

Everyone have a family,
I have a family too,
But went i look at other people family,
I feel so warmth,
But why when i look at my family,
I feel so unhappy,
Everyone can have a nice chat with their parent,
Why my parent can’t...................
when i was young that time,
how much u love me,
how u take care of me,
how much u love me n dote me......
i will never forget.
But that was how long ago i can't remember already,
can anyone tell me when was the last time u kiss me,
when was last time u hold my hand.........

i am totally lost. my house is just like a hotel to me now bcoz i can't find any warm in this house........ the adult only now how to complain about us, but hv they really ask or try to understand wht we want.... they never, they only know how to say do this do that.....
as for me, now i only can see that in their heart only got my brother, i am like a visible in this house or i shd say i am a outsider, i am so lost when i feel this, but nobody understand how i feel. i know when i say this my parent will say no u r not, n they will say that is my problem not thier problem......sometime i can't understand y the adults only now how to say but they never ever try to understand, they will always think that their always right. since i when back to sunway to study they never ever ask me how was my day in collage they will always say u better get gd grade if not i got to pay money.........they only scared that if i fail they hv to pay money, they only scared of thier money, sometime i still think that whether to study is a gd thing or a bad thing, even like now sometime i try to ask help from my dad, he refuse to help me, he is smart but he just don't want to help me. n they i very gd at saying 1 word i don't know then everything settle. if my dad not educated he say don't know i still can accept, but he is well educated......... i really don't know wht i shd do.....

sometime do u really think i want to go out, haha actually i rather stay at home rather going out, but sometime i just hv no choice bcoz i just don't want to stay at home bczo if i stay at home i will 100% fight with them so to avoid this so i go out.... they always complain that i treat outside people very nice y treat then not nice, bcoz at least outside people will help me......
i am not trying to say they r not gd but the problem is now they really never try to understand wht i am thinking.... i really hope that 1 day i can find back the feeling i use to hv last time........i still remember how he kiss me every nite, how much he love me n how gd he take care of me, but now all this is only a memory it is all gone. i really feel that the dad i use to hv is gone, now every day we speak to each other is less than 10 word sometimes not even a word, bcoz if we talk we will fight, they always say is my problem, but hv they ever think y i can become like that..........

somatime i feel like just end my life so i no need to think of anything, 1day i will go crazy is bcoz of u all, wht i want is simple only, i just want more concern from u all will do.............

How i wish i have a happy family,
Do you know how i feel when,
I look at other people parent,
Do you know how much love i need,
Do you know how i feel when,
Yours eyes only have brother,
Do you know that you all are a stranger to me,
Do you know when i was bad mood i can’t even talk to you all,
Do you know a not i just want to have the family warm,
We use to have last time,
How i wish all this can come back................


Do you know how much i love you all, but sometime i jsut don't know how to say........ Do u know wht does the FAMILY word means:
Father and Mother I Love you...............

Out to all my friend.......

i really enjoy the time when all of us r together, n i cherish all the happiness we hv togeher. although some of u i only know, u all about less then a year but the time i with u guys r vey happy.....................

Friend are like star,

Can not be seen,

But it will always be with you forever,

No matter how far you go they will by your side.

So if a have i piece of Oreo Cookies,

I will Break it into half,

And i will give my friend the creamy side,

Because all my friends are so sweet

I am glad that i have a group of nice friend.

i want to thanks all my friends. without u all my life won't be so colorful n joyful. there are:

• Mala Nathan
• Mei Lee
• Ailin
• AliceChia
• Apple Chai
• Gao Mei
• Jia Xin
• Kelly
• Feng Xian
• Nai Nai
• Peggy

i believe in fate bcoz, if there is no fate i will not get to know all of u and we can't be friend. everyone can be friend but to find a really gd friend is not easy at all.......but i am such a luckly person bcoz i hv found a group of friends like u guys. thanks for being my friend.......... if there is something that i hv done wrong or which u all don't like i am here to ask for forgiveness...........

I hope our friendship will be on forever, i will always remember that i hv a group of gd friend like u guys. thanks

Mystery Person............Annie

it hv been awhile that i know this annie….. i am trying very hard to be her best friend but the problem is no matter how i try we will hv a barrier between me n her. maybe bcoz she is much older than me but to me age is not a problem, n the worse thing is bcoz of her, i hv a misunderstanding between me n my friend…… am i wrong to admire n try my best to be gd friend with someone? i really don’t know y my life hv change suddenly just bcoz of this mystery person some time i really wish to know, wht i shd do to make sure every things i do r perfect…….. i really hope that one day she will understand how i feel but the problem is i hv done something wrong which myself also don’t know how to make a turn back……. i am so lost n down…… wht i know now me n this mystery person need to hv an end… otherwise it will coz me to hv more misunderstanding between me n my friend……i hope that the friend that misunderstand me will talk to me again n i hope that we can be like last time so happy………………. i admire annie so much but now is the end of this mystery person……