times fly...........

OMG 2 more days to go....... n it will be the end of 2009, this year really fly damm fast.... it just seems to be like yesterday...... this year alot of happy n unhappy things had happen.... lucky n unlucky things as well... haiz i really don't know wht to say wahaha......

the most luck thing had happen with me in this year are i get to know a special person that make my life colorful..... she is someone that gave me lots of love n care...... she let me know in this world still got someone like her around.... she really care about me n she really is the best person in this world......

the unlucky thing that i hv is i meet my ex boyfriend he is the worse guy i hv never meet in this world.... haiz.....

but anyway this year going to end n all the bad good n unhappy happy thing would be n memory for me... haha ..... by the way wish all of u hv a good start for the coming next 2010... hahaha i want to wish everyone a happy new year n leave all the sad memory behind n start a new great journey........

y i hv that kind of feeling.........

she has change alot..... i was thinking is my problem or hers... does she know anot how much i care about her n how much 我爱你。。。。i was thinking wht had happen between the both of us... it's bcoz i treat her not good enough or wht.... the way this few day she talk to me is totally different i was thinking is my problem or wht i really want to know wht happen to the both of us.... when ever i ask her wht happen she just say nothing at all but actually she got something in her mind is just that she refuse to tell me.... she always want to keep everything to herself... haiz....

i really hope that i can understand her more rather than no... totally don't know wht is she thinking, this few day she really good at saying up to u.... i begin to hate this word bcoz every thing i ask her she will say up to u..... i rather follow every single word or anything that she say.... than listen to she say up to u...... she is now totally everything also say up to u... i can sure that she is angry but i just don't know wht she angry about .... haiz y lah she everything also don't want to tell me.... i just want her to know that no matter wht i will listen to wht u say..... u know that this relationship is so important to me.... so pls don't make me like an idiot.... i know u always call me idiot but i am not ok ........ 我爱你。。。。

pls leave me alone..

no matter how hard u try.... nothing u can do.... because my haert already die when the moment that i said u r non of my concern anymore...... hei u know wht i am so happy now because last nite i already decided to stop myself from thinking n care about u.... i guess last nite u think that i would be happy to see u... but i can tell u a million sorry that u were wrong.... haha since that day i say everything i will return to u..... my heart n feeling towrds u is already end.....

do u know anot when last nite when i say both of us has come to the end ...... i was thinking to offer u a free ride to were u want to go.... ut things change when the minutes u push me.... i am glad that it makes me understand wht type of person u are.... no matter wht i will need to say a thanks to u, because if it is not u i won't know that there are some other people that much, i mean 1000 times better than u.... btw this is the end of u leave me alone......

Melaka Trip......... nice

on the 22 to 24 the four of us when to melaka trip.... haha it was fun... me , my sister, firdaus n jansen when together after our exam....

here we come melaka this is the red house....

me n my sister at the eye of malaysia ..... damm scarry
we when to the melaka we go for a ride in the eye of malaysia.... it was so nice n scary because we r scared of the height... we enjoy ourself on the eye of malaysia....

we on the becha... haha look we damm enjoy.........
althought we enjoy the becha but we got cheat by the person because we pay RM 80 for the stupid becha n for 2 becha we pay for RM160 OMG... but the 4 of us enjoy ourself because this is our first time on the becha... hehe.... but this will be the first n the last time that we will sit the becha.....

our supper satay chalop......
i eat satay chalop all the tme but this time is the best because this time i eat satay chalop with my friend n that is the first time they eat satay chalop... they find it intresting haha.........

having our durian cendol in san shu gong.......

me, firdaus n jansen.....

the four of us..... so crazy but i really enjoy myself haha.....

22 birthday.....

the unforgettable birthday celebration form my sister...... i am so happy even all my best friend hv gone oversea to study.... can't help me celebrate my birthday..... but i still got my sister... haha she gave me the best present.... thanks jie...... beside my sister i also got to thanks to Jansen... haha thanks alot........ n one thing about this special birthday celebration are i hv a Christmas birthday cake so special.... haha

me n Jansen

the three of us hehe....

me n my lovely jie...........

beside that i also need to thanks my baby that help me celebrate my birthday n make me a cake n cook a dinner for me.... even my baby don't know how to cook but she still cook a gd dinner for me... haha n hand made a birthday cake... baby thanks .....
thanks to all my friend that remember my birthday n all the wishes from my old friend, secondary classmates, gd friend n golfer friend n of course my relative.... thanks to all of u..... i am so happy to get all the flying wish......

even though my best friend in taiwan n uk hv send me a birthday wish.... haha thanks apple n sarah.... miss u guys alot..... anyway a million thanks to all of u.......

lost n don't know wht i sh do....

Why now only she know me?
Why she everything also never tell me?
Why i can't give her the best thing in this world?
Why i don't have the ability to buy the things that she wants?
Why i can't make her happy?
Why i can't guess what is on her mind?
Why i can't be the person that always make her laugh?
Why i can't solve her problem?
Why am i so hopeless ?
Why am i so useless?
Why my ability is limited?

There is so many why that can't be solve.... i was thinking why, why, why and why .... i feel sorry for her... i am not a good sister for her because i can't give her anything at all... i can't make her happy and smile always... why i am so hopeless... i was thinking last nite.... if she had know me earlier than that idiot person, i hv no problem giving her anything... but why she know me so late why.... sometime i feel that god like to make fun of people... but in other hand it is also a good thing because god make this arrangment 100% hv it's on reason.... i may not be able to give her the best thing now, but one day i will hv the ability to give her the best thing in the world, the god gave me a good present that's her... lots of thing she tell me i can't help her just bcoz of my limited ability.... i wan asking myself wht i hv give her..... nothing...i always say want to make her happy but nothing i give her........ no matter what i wll try to give her the best once i hv the ability... for the time bieng u just got to bear with me ok.... love u jie..... n miss u......

2day is a bad day for me i guess.....

2day wake up early morning an log in to my face book n notice my happy farm vegetable is stolen by 2 idiot friends.... but this is not the worse.... after i finish harvest all the thing in the happy farm.... i when out for breakfast with my lovely jie... in her yi yi wantan mee stall...so i reach there n hv our breakfast happily, after finish she got to go for her work then i head to the mcdonald to do some online...... so after a few hour i when home than i when to have tea with my xiao yi.... in between we chit chat about my academy n about my boyfriend.

after long chat i when home waiting to go find my lovely jie....... but the weather does not seem to be very good, but i don't care i still when out to find my jie in the heavy rain. i reach there i find her. at first we talk very nicely n happily. but guess wht? we actually fight....... after awhile she show me black face...... i was angry so i walk off, after that she keep saying sorry to me, at that piont of time i feel that the sorry word is an idiot word i totally hate that word.....

so at that point of time we were doing our own things, than she when to her friend party i was at my god sis cafe... after she finish her party she came over to my god sis cafe........over there that time i ask her wht happen just now? she say that the thing that i have say is to much... she angry with the thing i hv said.... but my intention was only telling her not to waste the money on the phone, bcoz i find it is not value for money at all....when she tell me off this my heart was deeply hurt i just feel like die than wht i also no need to dobut i can't bcoz the force don't allowed me to do so.... haiz... the nite when on here n there but in the end it was settle, i know she was very angry with me... n i know i hv done something wromg.... a million sorry to her.... i really don't know this word can cause so many misunderstanding... but pls remeber that i love u all more than anything n care about u all the most... is just that i don't know wht more i can do ..... sorry for making u feel that....