lost n don't know wht i sh do....

Why now only she know me?
Why she everything also never tell me?
Why i can't give her the best thing in this world?
Why i don't have the ability to buy the things that she wants?
Why i can't make her happy?
Why i can't guess what is on her mind?
Why i can't be the person that always make her laugh?
Why i can't solve her problem?
Why am i so hopeless ?
Why am i so useless?
Why my ability is limited?

There is so many why that can't be solve.... i was thinking why, why, why and why .... i feel sorry for her... i am not a good sister for her because i can't give her anything at all... i can't make her happy and smile always... why i am so hopeless... i was thinking last nite.... if she had know me earlier than that idiot person, i hv no problem giving her anything... but why she know me so late why.... sometime i feel that god like to make fun of people... but in other hand it is also a good thing because god make this arrangment 100% hv it's on reason.... i may not be able to give her the best thing now, but one day i will hv the ability to give her the best thing in the world, the god gave me a good present that's her... lots of thing she tell me i can't help her just bcoz of my limited ability.... i wan asking myself wht i hv give her..... nothing...i always say want to make her happy but nothing i give her........ no matter what i wll try to give her the best once i hv the ability... for the time bieng u just got to bear with me ok.... love u jie..... n miss u......

2day is a bad day for me i guess.....

2day wake up early morning an log in to my face book n notice my happy farm vegetable is stolen by 2 idiot friends.... but this is not the worse.... after i finish harvest all the thing in the happy farm.... i when out for breakfast with my lovely jie... in her yi yi wantan mee stall...so i reach there n hv our breakfast happily, after finish she got to go for her work then i head to the mcdonald to do some online...... so after a few hour i when home than i when to have tea with my xiao yi.... in between we chit chat about my academy n about my boyfriend.

after long chat i when home waiting to go find my lovely jie....... but the weather does not seem to be very good, but i don't care i still when out to find my jie in the heavy rain. i reach there i find her. at first we talk very nicely n happily. but guess wht? we actually fight....... after awhile she show me black face...... i was angry so i walk off, after that she keep saying sorry to me, at that piont of time i feel that the sorry word is an idiot word i totally hate that word.....

so at that point of time we were doing our own things, than she when to her friend party i was at my god sis cafe... after she finish her party she came over to my god sis cafe........over there that time i ask her wht happen just now? she say that the thing that i have say is to much... she angry with the thing i hv said.... but my intention was only telling her not to waste the money on the phone, bcoz i find it is not value for money at all....when she tell me off this my heart was deeply hurt i just feel like die than wht i also no need to dobut i can't bcoz the force don't allowed me to do so.... haiz... the nite when on here n there but in the end it was settle, i know she was very angry with me... n i know i hv done something wromg.... a million sorry to her.... i really don't know this word can cause so many misunderstanding... but pls remeber that i love u all more than anything n care about u all the most... is just that i don't know wht more i can do ..... sorry for making u feel that....

things are very complicated.....

from the day we know each other... it was just like yesterday.... we know each other for about 2 months, i guess.... we are getting along well but some of the time we still fight with each other... but all this was just a while, after a while we are are fine together... no matter wht i just want u to know that how important are u to me... n how much i care of u.... my love towards u r unpredictable..... don't ever doubt my love towards u.... sometime i feel hurt when u take the love that i gave u, n compare to the idiot person.... sometime the way i treat u is 100 times better that the way i treat the idiot person... pls don't ever ever compare the way i treat u....jie i just want u to know how much i love u... i will promise wht ever it's ..... i want u to be happy that's it.... will try my best to do wht every u want.... love u.....^-^

u r he best give from god beside my family...

jie u r one of the greatest give from god to me... jie when i am with u i feel so comfortable....u hv totally replace that idiot person... with u around i feel that kind of warm n love... i know how much u love me n dote me.... i can feel it, u may not tell me but the love u gave towards me i can feel it..... n it is a strong want.. as u say everything no need u to admit it i also can feel it.. i know u always talk to the doll how much u care about me, but u just like me feel shy to tell me... haha actually we hv the same problem dare not say.... every moment we are together i feel i am the luckiest a mei in the world... even though u treat me very fierce, but i still feel i am the luckiest a mei in the world. i know u treat me fierce is for my own good... sometimes u r really very fierce... i scared of u... but i accept it coz i know everything u do i will listen coz u r my one n only one sister.... looking at our pattern people will thing that i we are sister haha.... but wht ever it's thanks for giving me the love that i need.. thanks jie...
we can know each other now n we can be sister now is bcoz we r feted to know each other, no matter wht we must cherish everything... jie thanks for everything u gave me....

me n jie together.... look the happiest moment n i am so lucky n the warm that i hv

i am lucky to hv her... i feel so lucky...

Do you know how much i care?

Do you know how much i love you?

Do you know how important are you to me ?

Do you know how much i dote you ?

all the question above only got one answer, it is unlimited.....

my life is full of color when u enter, my life was in a mess when i don't know u, but know is different.. u make me feel that my life got meaning... bcoz of u i feel love, my life is mieserable without u, without u i don't think i will be happy, without u i won't feel that i am a lucky person.. u r a great give from god to me.. i can say that u r an angle given my god to me.... with u around everything wil be find bcoz i know that u will give me a helping hand... with u around i hv no worry.... i feel so comfortable when u r with me... i can say that u r the right one for me... my life is brighten up by u... i want to tell u a million thanks... without u i think i don't think i won't be happy like now.....

when u come my house to stay i can feel a sister warm... i can feel the gd nite kiss from u... i can feel that kind of family love which i can't get most of the time... when everytime i think of u i feel that everything is fine n i feel that i am the most lucky person in this world.... at this point of time u enter my life n pull me up from the darkness...
long time ago i want to tell u but i just don't hv the yong zhi to tell u n i feel so shy to tell... but 2day i decided to write her bcoz i want u to know that all the while this is what i wanted to tell u.... all this in my heart for very long already.. finally i make up my mind to write... all this is from my heart.... pls don't doubt my love towards u.. 爱 你。。。。。1314 jie...♥ i am happy knowing u n i am happy that u enter my life n give me lots of love... n dote me alot ... u r my everything.. i hv given the whole heart to u pls don't ever ever leave me...

wht hopeless n useless person.........

hei guess wht after so many thing happen, i realize that the person is me Wong Joyce Lyn. i don't know y but i only feel that all the unlucky things always very near to me..... i really need to do something to make myself more lucky.

there is lots of thing i wish to do n hope to do but it is impposible for me to accomplish, i wish that i hv the abbility to do all the things that i wish to do..... i want them to feel happy but it seems like always make them feel unhappy wht the hell wrong with me...... i feel i am so useless bcoz i only make them feel unhappy......... i want them to be happy but always make them unhappy. they alwyas say i am happy they will be happy..... i know that but i want them to be the happiest persons in the world....... i really a hopeless n useless person in the world bcoz the basic thing also i can't do wht more want them to be the happiest person in the world n protect them........

sometimes i feel so sorry bcoz the things they wish me to do i can't do...... i want to do but i hv a limitation...... i will try my best to do so ....... but lots of thing i need help......... my power is limited so i need someone to help me.......the more power u hv the better u would be..... i will do wht ever they like not the things they don't like..... and sometimes i require so help..........

as long as u all happy i am happy

i want the four of them to be the happiest person.......

first i feel that i am the happiest person in the world bcoz i hv the four of them...... but i feel damm unlucky to hv that idiot as my god sister..... wtf really make a big mistake..... that idiot make me feel that i am an idiot also, everything to go accordingly to that idiot...... but lucky know i realise that the idiot is not as good as i thought.......

lucky now i hv the four of them, i really scared that the idiot will hurt the four of them, if that idiot dare to touch 1 of them, that idiot will be sorry for sure, anywhere as long as they are happy i will be happy.......

this few day a lot of things happen but lucky all hv been settle thanks god...... finally now i realize that there is someone better then the idiot..... with her i can find a sister love that i wish to hv and at least i treat her well n nice she will appreciate it...... wht ever it's i am lucky to hv her.... i know how much she care about me, but there is some thing i wish to tell her, but i can't say it out bcoz i feel shy....... she is important to me but sometime i just don't know how to say it out. i feel that i am stupid haha..... a lot of thing she do is for my own good so i am willing to listen to her, but she always say that i give her black face..... haha but i never... haiz don't know y she say like thatmay be bcoz of my face i think but my face is always like that, i only hope that she can trust me..... i just want to tell her that i am willing to do anything and listen to her..... that's it, she always is my jie jie.......

baby i love u so much u know how much...... i want u to know that no matter wht u r still the important person to me. pls don't everything keep to urself. i feel so sorry bcoz that idiot alwyas try to make the both of us fight but lucky our love is very stable.... haha baby no matter wht happen i will be at ur side.... so u no need to worry.... every thing i will help u.... just remember that no matter wht i am there for u..... nothing will happen to me de i am so strong bcoz i need to protect u........love u ........... so much

as for the one at home, sometime i feel she is a bit fan, but i know she care about me bcoz wht everything things she do is for my future so nothing can't complain, she is still the best haha.......

walau the last one is my damm gd friend loh.... she is much older than me but we get along very well haha.... i just want to say thanks to her..... haha anyway just want to say a million thanks to the four of them..... thanks god for giving me such a precious give......i just one u all to remember as long as u all happy i will be happy........