i hv made up my mind...

What i done is not enough.... or you just think that I am a person that can be kick around... What i hv done is not enough... sometimes i really feel that the things I have done to you may not be enough... but I just I want to say that...this time i hv made up my mind that...i give u 2days if you still don't want to care about me then i have nothing to say i just hav to really end my life... I am really tired... I do not have the ability to so so any more... i just want u to know that i love you more than anything.... What i want is really very very simple... is that really so hard for... you... if you love me can you just give me one chance once for all... you know how important you are to me... but i really don't know why you can do this to me... Jie pls lah i beg you... i really do not hv the ability to carry on any more... i am really struggling... I do not want all this to happen but i just hope that you can at least give me the chance to do so... i really need you very badly... you are my everything... without you I really do not have the ability to carry on... I need you badly...Jie pls lah i beg you.. can you just don't treat me like this... I do not have the courage to carry on any more... i really do not know what will come first... die or i will fall first... Jie pls lah I beg... you... i need you know now... I do not know what i can do any more... every day i only can act to be happy....in order to cover all my sorrow... serious you know nothing about all this... Jie pls lah i beg you... don't do this to me... i really going to fall soon... Jie pls lah give me the last chance i beg you lah....

Tanjung Leman... trip with my be loved Jie...

After so long that we have fight this the trip we go with each other... my heart to you is still the same no matter what. My love to you will never ever change.... because you are my only sister... no matter how you treat me...I still need to tell you, that was a sister always a sister... this will never ever change.... what ever you want to say is up to you..... i just want you to know that... I will never ever give up no matter what.

I don't know what is your feeling now... but my feeling towards you will never ever change this is forever.... I have the ability to go back what we suppose to be.... My love to you can ever never die... because I love you to much.... I know you doubt my feeling toward you but I only can say that... you are the only one that I cares the most... you are my every thing... without you I really don't know what I can do.... No matter what I don't mind how you treat me... what I know is how I should treat you.....

When I took this photo I feel that I should be the one standing beside you... I should be with you all the while... N i hope that I am the one that can company you all the time... when there is a sunset... I hope that I am the one that can give you everything you needed... and I hope that I am the person that can give you the love you need... I hope that I am the person that can do everything with you... I really hope that I am te one that you will kiss and to hug.... now everything I just hope that you we can become like what we use to be... Jie you know how much I love you....

Now my only wish is that we can be like the star fish like this.... we can be forever together.... on the beach... and I hope that we can just enjoy every single moment till the last day of life.... I always thought that the love that I gave you is too little... but when I look back i actually i have done a lot of thing for you... but you still think that it is not enough... so the only thing I can say is I will still give you the love that i always do, but i will not give you any pressure... i just want to tell you that I love you so much.....

feel like write something....

it had been long, i did not write anything... haha finally i got time to write.... lately so many things had happen it is just like it happen yesterday.....it had lots of happy moment and bad things... haha but it is all past already... anyway everyday is a new day...

lately i miss my sister so much... she is like so busy no time for me also... the time we together is getting lesser everyday... our time per week is like less then 6 hours.... i feel like we have a gap in between us... sometimes i think how long can i keep this relationships... every single day i am like so lost without her... but she don't know it at all... i really feeling moody when she is not with me... when ever i know that she hv more time with her friend i feel that i am like nobody to her.... i really hv that kind of feeling....

she always say that she is just beside me... but i don't think so at all....i feel that she is damm far from me... i really can't feel anything.... sometimes i think is i demand to much....reason i do all this thing is bcoz i can't stand that she is not with me.... hope that all this will past soon... i am really tired of all this.... sian

in order hand i hv some happy moment such as go holiday with my friend.... n i hv bought a new laptop and a video camera..... sometimes really thanks to my friend bcoz when my sis not with me at least they are there to company me...i just everyday is a good n great day for me......

the first time i meet such person.....

that day i when to the funeral... u know wht i see.... u will think this is unbelievable.... people who when for the funeral all feeling sad n down.... n people must pay respect.. but that day i realize that in this word there is some kind of brainless people.....

the family is feeling sad n down... but they are some family that are not so close when to the funeral like n idiot.... Chinese funeral there is a ceremony where by all the family member need to do some thing together with the monk..... so the family member do accordingly with the monk sadly n crying, but during the ceremony, the family that are not so close when to the funeral like some kind of wedding dinner or gathering.... OMG the worse thing is during the ceremony they are not suppose to to walk around, smoking n talk.... but they really walk around like an monkey, talk like some kind of people that never talk for ages.... OMG does they know the word " respect" but come blame lah.... bcoz thier parent never teach them how to respect......

infect i shd say that the whole family are some kind of monkeys...... the old one the young want are the same... haiz wht a sad thing...... the worse thing is during the ceremony they did not follow the law at all...... now i finally know the word father like son....... haha...

as i say monkeys is smart but brainless that's y they do all the things that an idiot will do.......i just can't understand y a simple respect they also can't do.....OMG but sometimes monkey also now how to respect n listen to human word..... this brainless people can't understand human work don't know wht type of language shd use to talk to them.... anyway this people will have retribution one day......... the same thing will happen to them.......

haiz brainless people is like that de lah..... we will wait n see the retribution that they have in future....... idiot idiot idiot...........but i feel sad for this brainless people OMG let's silent for them 5 minutes..... idiot sad

damm sian loh come back for chinese new year........

chinese new year shd be very happy de, but my chinese new year damm sian de loh... i am a bit tired of coming back..... how i wish that i am at JB alone or atleast i can go find my love one rather than come back here to hv all kind of fan thing..... i hate to come back here, i will never ever come back her for new year.....anymore...... i will be going back to JB on the second day chinese new year... haha can't wait..... i want to say one word i hate chinese new year........ i don't want to chinese new year..........

fucking ARS.....

wht the fuck..... i am tired with the ARS mentor...... every word SO WHAT ....... wtf he trying to do take revenge on us or trying to make us fail his subject..... u know wht we cn call him MR TAN SO WHAT.... he is really damm too much i really damm hate her loh.... if he still continue like that i promise i will make her suffer.... idiot... i will make him suffer........ idiot i hate ARS..... if u still REJECT my assignment i will make sure u will suffer....... i hate ARS...

wow damm fast class going to start soon.....

just 2 more day to go, the class going to start again .... OMG when school open got to be prepare for the exam... haiz sian lah... really damm worried scared that i will fail mor then 1 subject haiz who can tell me how.... wht i know is i am going to fail my QM the worse n the one that i hate most.........

i really damm worried now. if i fail got to resit again i just hate the subject... i really don't want to resit the subject..... haiz OMG the only subject that i am not worry is FA... this subject i think B is not a problem as for the IT i think B shd be able too.... but for the FOM i hope it can pass will do... haiz...... i really worried lah can't pass i will die bcoz it may pull down my GPA for me to enter a U....

pls lah let me pass lah... bcoz i put in lots of effort.... pls lah.... anyway class going to start i feel so happy haha if not i will be damm boring lah.... haha......