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The force.... was strong.... can't believe it....

2012-02-08T02:30:00.000-08:00

All the while I do not believe it..... haiz... but now I really got to admit it... I was totally wrong... what ever it is.. the force and the power was so strong.... I do not know what is happening... and what is going on... the only thing I believe is.... all this is fate.... sometime when sit back and think back it is all so sudden.... haiz maybe this is what we call when a door close up in other hand... but the other door is opening without any notice in another hand.......when I spend time thinking on the things happening around me... it make me feel so happy but some of the time.. make me... feel... sad too... but most of the things... make me feel so... happy and... I got to admit it..... for a very long time I did not smile and laugh... like now.....maybe in this world.... fate really exists..... wahaha....

The force and the power really make me do lots... of impossible things.... I really got shock when I realize it..... it was amazing when... I ask myself... why am I able to that.... after a little while I start.. laughing.. and smiling all the way.... and I will ask myself.. am I nuts... because I would just start.... laughing and smiling out of sudden.... but what ever it is.....I got to thank God... for arranging.... and open up my door wants again....wahaha....... nothing more I can say beside... laughing and laughing.... smiling and smiling... because... I do not know how to say what to say... because this type of happy... I have lost it... few years ago....But I do not know how long this would be... the only things I would want to say is... as long as I am able too... I want this to go on and on forever.....anyway... I am really happy....DO YOU ALL KNOW.....????

Anyway... I hope that... I have the ability... and the key...... to keep this going and I hope that... I am able to... open up the door that..... it has been close for very long too.... BTW I am happy ..... and I hope that I am able to do so too.....

If you are mind you will be mine....

2012-02-05T11:30:00.000-08:00

God how i wish now there is someone would appear in my life.... too guide me...advise me....teach me.....tell me what is wrong n what is right..... n help me make decision on certain things.....T^T maybe i TTM. for this bcoz it is impossible...but I really struggling now on lots of things .....anyway hope everything would be better...

I am hoping that this would come true... because... I am waiting for this person....I feel it but... I am not sure... maybe because.....I ignore it... or maybe because I dare not ask.... and dare not tell.... I feel lots of things... but in the mean time... I ignore it too... what the hell... I feel that.. I am loser.... I know it is near... but I stop.... because... as usual I scared I will lost or fall.... haha.... anyway.... maybe.....I ignore... and I act like nothing happen is still the best... because.... not everything got to say clearly.... being stupid.. is the best things..... maybe this is the best.....

Anyway...your one word or sentence... is still better than their.... long winded sentence..... If you understand me you will get it...and you will know it... Someone tell me she know it..... but the both of us acted... stupid... and don't want to say it out.... haha... just hope that... it is really like this... if not... the only things... I can say is the god is joking with me..... haha.....anyway... what ever it is...if you belong to me... I do not need to anything...you will be mine.... wahaha.... let everything go on the flow... and do what I want to do... and as long as I know I am not doing the right thing is enough.... haha... because I believe that the gods already plan for me and you.... so I will just wait for the outcome......MY friend puzzle out the things happen and everything regarding the both of us ......but only one world I said.... don't tell me the answer the answer... because... I want it to be secret.... because.... I like the feeling now.... and as far as I know that... I do not do any prediction..... because through this way... I won't feel afraid....of anything.....I can just be myself.... haha.....

people ask me what is the prediction... of this...... Seriously... I do not have the answer... because.... I am using a very sincere heart to.... look at this matter....because I know that.... I won't get hurt... because I have confidence that.... I won't get hurt..... but I will feel sad..... sometime..... I realize that... my door is being open.... already.... I am no longer shut my door up... like last time......through out so many things happen this time... is the only time that.... I am able to....just leave without fear...what ever it is... I feel easy and comfortable... all the time......haha... what ever it is...... at the this time... I do not need to do anything..... because if you are belong to me... I do not need to do anything....because... I do not do anything... you will be mine no matter what..... haha.... so I am waiting for the.... outcome...... god bless......The god know what is the best for me... and the god already got the plan for me... haha..... everything let it go on fate......

what the hack....

2012-02-05T10:33:00.000-08:00

Do I look like a kid??? why everyone... say I look like a kid....I do not get it... and the problem is they say...due to certain thing.. and certain... situation I look like a kid and especially in front of my parent and those people who dote me....... what the hack... I totally don't know what to say....did I ??? seriously... IDK.... whatever...as long as I don't think so.... haiz.... it is not bothering... me anyway... haha....

Haiz exam is near.... but till now I still don't know what the hack I am doing...?? I am still going out yum cha and gai gai ... and everyday play non stop....like nobody... business...why I am like out of control.... even me myself also don't know why... I am like that.... I feel strange.... but I don't know what is the reason.... haiz...I just could not concentrate... on my study....what can I do....?? someone say to me the reason I could not concentrate.... is because... nobody push me.. and no one is beside me..... scolding me... walau... when I heard this..... I say please... lah... I hate being.... restricted.... and being force to do things.... and the worse is... someone... say that... wanna take away my laptop... and forbid me to go online.... and she say to me..... ask me to sleep early... and say to me... please don't go out late at night.... and the best is don't go out.... wahaha.... funny loh... don't think.... that... I will listen to what you say... and don't try to .. ask me to email..... you my daily.... time table to you.... and don't ever ever think that... I would... make a time table.....thank you....

Do you possible think that I would listen to... the things... you said.... now haha the only thing I can say is you think to much... haha.....and please stop checking on me...... Don't think that.... I don't know you ask... san jie to check on my.. thing..... I am not stupid.....If want to check on me... please do it a brilliant way thank you.... don't let me find out.... BTW for your information... I hide her on FB... too so you will know nothing... from now onwards....you know I hate... people check on me....and know..... don't ever think that..... I still scared of you like last time..... kkk...

Please don't act that... you understand me very well....being my sister...you know nothing loh... you do not know what I want loh....so don't tell me... how much you care how much you love me.... to me all is rubbish...because.... anyone... have the right to say.... that but for sure is not you... because you do not know.....you only know how to... force me.. with the things you want.... anyway...I will listen.. but does not me..... I would follow....anyway..... I do not want to say more... because... what ever I say ... you would not..... listen.... so I rather not say....

This time... i seriously very hurt....

2012-02-02T05:25:00.001-08:00

I do not know why... my tears suddenly drops..... I really could not control it any more.... How I wish I could know what is happening... and what went wrong..... I really cherish this.... friendship so much....that is why... I get so frustrated... and sad.... and my temper is being so hot... this few day..... Every friendship is important to me... but... now I realize that... our friendship..... is even 100 times more important to me.....I really do not know what more I can do....

I just want to say that... I really cherish this friendship so much.... no matter what... I can only say that... If there is any misunderstanding...... or what... I am very very sorry..... I do not know what more I can do... because... I really care about you.... but what ever it is... my care and concern is only being a friend.....I do not know how you think.... but... I really feeling sad because of your ignorance.... any way... just want to tell you that... what ever it is.... this friendship is important to me.....nothing more I can say at this time..... the only thing I can say is sorry.... I do not know what can do... at this time... the only things I can say is thanks for being my friend..... I will remember you... as one of my very good friend... thank you....

Everything..... and my feeling....

2012-01-30T04:38:00.000-08:00

People would leave my life...but there is people enter in my life too.... anyway... the only things I wish to say is thanks you... no matter for those who enter in my life or leave my life.....at this time I want to say thank you because you make my life so joyful....and cheerful....and grateful you enter into my life.....lots of things I do not know how to say..... that is why the only way... I can do is type on the FB and make it...all in short form.....maybe I am to proud to lose... that is why..... I do not want to say...haiz....

This few day you have been using jie jie to force me to do things... would you think I would listen... or do you think that... it would help... if I refuse to listen.... You all should know so once again... please don't ever ever try to use... jie jie... no use de.... you all have been asking the same question again and again... you all clearly no the answer... and you all know the answer.... If you have the ability... then do it... don't use jie jie... no use de.... so please stop it.... I am tired of listen..... you think I do not want to go for class or do not want to... do anything you ask her come back would help.... ??? I tell you no .... if you ask her to come back.... it will not help... KKK so stop it...thanks you.... and please don't tell me funny things...... thanks you....

Break.... liao...

2012-01-26T09:31:00.000-08:00

My heart was so break.... I do not know what to say.... but I seriously can say My heart... is totally break when.... I heard it..... But nothing I can do because....the thing I heard was... as what I think... and assume... Maybe I should just keep some and do not show it too much.....I guess this should be the best way.... After a few thing I have heard it make me realize that... I should just maybe.. give more time......

During this Chinese New Year... Me and my lovely Xiao Jiu Mu have a little chat... and I tell her so many things.... the only conclusion and answer I get in the end is... cherish..... the word cherish seems to be easy to say... but the only thing I can say if I cherish but my cherish is being rejected.... what I can do....??? Nothing can be done..... My Xiao Jiu Mu say to me....it is hard to find... since I find it.... no matter what never give up... must keep.. it going.... If not I will regret... in the end..... Haiz I know but.... I have do what I suppose and what I should.....no the matter is just wait... that's all I can say.....If really understand.... automatically.... would understand... so no need to say more..... maybe my everything is not perfect...and done not enough....just Let It Be....

Chinese New Year..... 2012

2012-01-25T07:21:00.001-08:00

My family.... photo... with all yi po....my grand parent... my cousin..... my jiu jiu.... my jiu mu.... my yiyi..... and my parent....

This Chinese New Year... As usual come back to Melaka.... My grandma... house to... celebrate......new year...haha... On the.. reunion.... dinner night... my grandma..... my mom.....A yi... my jiu mu... they all cooked... lots of good food...the dishes that I love the most... that I like the most is the Chicken that my grandma cooked.... haha anyway this is beside the point... I enjoy..... the gather... with all my jiu... jiu mu.... my yiyi... and my grandparent.... haha... anyway...it is fast... I am going back tomorrow loh.... I enjoy... every single moment... with all my cousin.... haha... anyway... this year Chinese New Year... is very different... because this... year me and my family take lots... of family photo... unlike last year.... but I just love this year new year.....

This few day... lots of things happen... I become the family.... Clown... haha.. thanks to one very smart person loh.... My god my name become....ohanzi leng lui plus fmx leng lui alamak seriously thanks to you loh... Jocelyn Jie Jie... for the new nick... .... haiz anyway... never mind I am find with it... as long as.. all of you are happy...I am happy..........another great thing is... my dad and mom actually support me to go pick up.... photograph... course since I love photo shooting so much ... haha... I am so happy about it..... haha.... I am glad to see my grand parent and my atai ... in great health especially.... my atai.... she is already 100 years old.... yet she is still so strong... and she still can wallk and she still can remember all those... old old memory.....Hopa my Atai... can live long life..... and Hope that my grandparent... too can live long life... and... happy always.....

Lots... of things I do not want to say... but I just want to say that... I love you all so much.... Happy Chinese New Year.....And I also want to say that I Love the three of you so much JOJJ.... LLJC....& CPYJJ.... all of you are the people that I care the most... my new year wish is hope that... my entire family... and the three of you... healthy always.....and happy always....

Did some stupid thing... haha

2012-01-08T20:31:00.000-08:00

Last night when I got home... I open up my... laptop... and do some changes on the photo that... I took.....Looking at it... the changes I made is not nice at all.... but I do not have choice... because.... I do not understand chinese so the things I can do is so limited... haiz... but anyway..... It is my effort.... haha... just love it...it took me few hour to do all this photo.... haha the photo will be uploaded here....... hehe....

Looking at the all the photo... the only thing I can say lucky I got... two very pretty lady who are willing to be my model.... if not I do not have the chance to take all this photo.... There is a few photo.. which I really love it... but few of it make me... very disappointed...... because.....it was very lousy when...i took the photo.... but never mind... I will practice more.... haha... practice make perfect... hope you will like it..... thanks for everything.......

Hope that the photo that I make you will like it.....once again thanks...... haha ... hope next time you can be my model again... wahaha.....

Feeling that I am so stupid... don't know what I write also... and don't what to say... feeling so speechless... really don't know how to say...things loh.... supid stupid people like me... talk also don't know...but no matter what still need to thanks... Jocelyn Jie Jie and her cousin Ruoyu Loh....

feeling....

2012-01-08T01:58:00.000-08:00

Sometime... I am asking myself... who can understand my feeling.... Who can know what I am doing.... no one.... ever ever know... because they think that... what ever I do or think is not a matter....Sometime... I try not to think and not to see... and not to know.....Maybe I am just trying to run away... of all the things that happen around me... no matter towards... family... love... and friendship..... I do not know how long I could run away from all this.....

As for my family..... I really do not know how to say... Is just that I have my own reason not to take over... but you all just force me to do something which I am not willing too.... Have you ever ask what is the reason..... no you all did not... you all only ask me to make my decision...... But is is a stress.... to me..... Seriously I do not like people talk at the back of me... don't ever think I do not know what others talk at the back of me.... Is just that... when I say it out... it is really hurt.... maybe.... one mistake that... you all made is... choose me..... as your children.... For all this year...I know that you all love me... but something can't hide is.... how other people talk about me.....I should be protected by you all not being bully by someone..... when ever anything happen.... you all say nothing.... but just a word of sorry..... I am really tired already....I am tired of acting I am strong.... I don't mind what they say... and I am tired of everything... I am doing....

Actually I thought.... I found... Lovies Ang Chiew Fong ..... is a good thing to me... but who knows in ended up to be in this way...... I thought that... when I am with her I feel family... I feel love... I feel warm... but who knows she is also the one to hurt me the most... but thank god that I have already let go of her.... Maybe I am lack of family love and warm... so when ever anyone... treat me nice... I would just accept with no hesitation..... Who can tell me..... what is the... things... I am suppose to do... for the time.... I am lost for very long..... no matter how hard... I try... I will never ever get out of it.....

One of my friend... say that.... I bang my head on the wall again... when I meet the mystery person..... but seriously... I did not... because the only things I know is I did not... I am a human... I know who treat me well.. and who don't.... just to say that... I am not doing anything blindly..... I am just choosing the things I want to do... and what is right to do..... But one things I can say is being with that mystery person... I feel so warm..... and I can feel the things that... I have lost for very long or I should say that... she made me found back that the things I have lost..... being with her... I can't hide... anything... maybe my friend was right... towards her I lost my...sense... and I lost my "pan duan li"....that's why I can say that... she is in the list already... because I do not know why that mystery person have this kind of power to make me lost all this.... maybe because of her character completely show me as one......and make me scared of her ba and maybe she is the one that I am waiting for and looking for.... but no matter what... the only things.... I can say is.. thanks.... to that mystery person..... ...... at the time now just let it be... as it is... when the times.. comes... if the mystery person mean to be... automatically will happen.... because another friend of mine ask me to ask her...... I do not want to do so... because I find no reason to do so...... as I say the god will plan for me..... and the god already... got the decision for me...... what ever it is... for the time being... just leave it at it is......btw thanks also for letting me be... myself when... I am with you..... because... nothing I can hide... haha....... anyway... I will not do anything... because..... I like the feeling now.. and I do not want to loose.... anything... God please bless me and the mystery person.... thanks...

I really do not have... mood to do anything... at the moment.....I just feel like cry that's all.... But what ever it is... there is good and bad things happen..... I just have face the bad things.... If I can face it... everything would be fine..... anyway....I just want to say that..... for the time being..... I do not want to do any decision..... at all..... For the time being just continue...to fake and be strong.....I just want to say that... I care... so everything is a matter to me even it is just a small matter...... god bless all of us....

what a day...

2012-01-07T08:14:00.000-08:00

Haiz.... this morning wake up around 11 plus..... Do not know what happen... simply send things...to friends... what the hell... nearly got myself into trouble..... wake up.. my back bone did not get any better but it become worse... so went out with my mom....aunty.... uncle.... brother... and cousin..... for lunch..... I went to the stupid shop I order... popiah... and dry chili chicken... rice again..... the same thing I order... every time I go to that stupid shop..... anyway this is beside the point... the worse is..... my uncle... order the fried vegetable... and force me to eat... then I direct say.... you think I would eat this... stupid vegetables...... then he have no choice to eat on his own... because..... he know if he force me..... I will direct... stop eating everything.......just talking crap....

after..... the lunch... I went to the stupid..... chinese... Dr to.... see my back bone... What the hell he direct take the... medicine... and scrap in on my back and start pushing.... walau... damm stupid... without telling me... in the end I shouted inside.... make me so no face..... till the end of the day.... the chinese Dr gave me a... bottle of powder and ask me to eat for 1 months... then go back to visit him....... I guess I am not going to eat...it... disgusting like hell and not going back to see him..... just hate it... what ever it's the doctor say no egg no chicken and no cold stuff... I say to him you are crazy..... but lucky when I went to my uncle... my uncle say...can eat chicken ... and egg.... but no cold stuff...Still KNS to me.....haha...

haiz... today went to collect my report from my unlce... and also let him take a look at my throat....only one word my unlce say... totally no more smoking... no more fried stuff... no more solid food.... and no more spicy food.... wahaha... funny... do you think I will follow....he ask me to stop before it is to late......what ever.... the as for the report...... GBU... don't understand.... haha... when tidy up the room I discover that I got so many type of medicine need to take.....but non of it I take....... sian lah... want me take... wait long long....

Today... I finally made up my mind to throw all the stupid things that she bought for me in to the dustbin without any hesitation.... I do not feel any... sadness when I throw... it.. So I guess I can officially... say that... she is totally out of my mind...I am free from her... she is no more my concern.... happy happy... today blog.... really sucks... all talking rubbish... wahaha

I am totally lost.... in a far far away place....

2012-01-05T10:55:00.000-08:00

The decision... is being put a side at the moment... I do not wish to do any decision.... What ever decision... I make it will be totally wrong.... so I will just leave it....For sure one thing... I am not going to stop what I am going to do... unless or if there is someone have the ability... to make me do so... If not.... sorry... I will not do any changes.... don't ask me to think of my love one.... for the time being I do not have..... So no use...because all this while I am completely alone.....

All this while I am only looking for someone that can appreciate.... the things that I do or done for them... no matter as a friends or lover.... but I fail to do so.... because.... No one ever appreciate the things I have done..... As for know I am sick and tired of... my life... so the last thing... I could do is.... take my life.... as a chips.... So I can just.... gamble it away.... Don't tell me..... me myself also don't cherish... my on life.. then who will..... I did cherish... my life... but... it let me down over and over again.... so what you want me to do....

For few time... I thought I found one but... it is the same.... in the end... I am only being use... and the worse is.... they never ever appreciate the things... I have done... on top of that they hurt me... like nobody business.... So looking back all the things... I have done... this time round...I use my life to gamble... if I lose this round.... is not a big deal..... If I lose the only things.. I have to do is.... sleep forever in a wooden box..... nothing much.... If I win this round I may... be happily enjoy myself with that person.... that's all.... is either bang the wall or not to bang the wall......

Anyway for the time being this the only things I can think of.... don't ask me why I got such thinking.... and why I do like this.... because... I do not know the answer to all this.... so we will just wait and see the outcome......

Since the day I have said something to someone....now I would like to clarify it... I want to know from that day till now... I just wanna know that, what you treat me as?.....as you know the answer... because I have already... say it... out twice once inside the car and once was on viber call... Just want to know.... because... I realize that... I am getting more and more over my limitation...... as a nobody.... maybe I could say so... because..... as for know I still do not know... what is the current situation about us... so I just say it as a nobody...... and all the time I would just worry that you might...get angry... everyday worry about you.....seriously after her no one have the ability to make me... do so much thing.....accept you... So I am just curious..... I am sure this time round is... not my mind.....sot... I am sure that the god is doing something or maybe he is joking with me...... Anyway... I am trying to... ignore all this... but every time... the same thing keep knock and knock non stop on my door telling me that I should tell you how I feel, but the problem is I already told you on the Chirtsmas Eve ...... I am really helpless.... and lost... If I say now is 100% comfirm... I scared it would make the entire situation... become worse.... anyway... forget it... I know I will never ever able to get the answer.... So I just leave it..... Seriously only people who I think she is like my sister can make me listen or do the things that they say....If not I would not just follow or do it blindly....the worse is they can make me scared of them... just like I scared of you.... whatever it is not a matter because... I guess I know the answer.... I guess... so I hope this would not cause any problem or barrier between us..... just being curious..... that's all...

I am... curious... I am... stupid because.... I can't do my decision... I need someone... by my side to guide me... and teach me..... how... whatever it is..... wait for that person to appear ba..... that's the only thing I can say.... btw last thing I wanna say... I wash my hand off from something... and I do not want to get involve.... of anything else....so please don't bring me into the garden... and throw me there alone again...... Now I am only waiting for... answer and thinking what I shd do next.... thank you.....

2011.... end 2012... hello....

2011-12-31T00:34:00.000-08:00

2011 is over... I end it..... with a nice celebration..... and great company.... haha.. anyway just enjoy it... my countdown celebration...2011... celebration was totally... a very unusual... type of countdown.... but whatever it is... all the countdown was totally perfect... wahaha... so I can say ended up 2011 was fun haha....

2012 started for the 3rd day...... haha.... on the 1st day.... of 2012... I did a very stupid things... in fact I do not know why I can come out with such a funny idea..... maybe it was a good start of 2012.... on the 1st day.... but anyway I enjoy the whole process.... haha... thanks to all my friends.....thanks.... i enjoy the 1st.. day only... as for the second day... it was totally sucks... but the only things... I know... is... for 2012... I am going to put a full stop on one things... I do not want you to be in my life anymore... I have enough... of all this... I do not want to carry on with all the bloody things... anymore.... haha anyway... I am already clear with it.. so no matter what.... we all finish....and end.... wahaha

2012 is a new start for me....I just want to say... my wish the god is clearly...understand.... and he know what I want.... so for the time being I just sit back and wait for the outcome... because I have done what I have too....what ever it is..... today is a new day for me... so any thing I would just face it....2012....hope I have a great year... Btw god pls bless the few of them with... love and care.....

today..... whatever... anything....

2011-12-30T10:33:00.000-08:00

Today... really sucks...... from the moment I wake up... I know today would be a lousy day... haiz.... as usual... wake up... I would just message my friend and say.. morning... then walk out from outside to take have a smoke... then come in... to take bath... today suppose to be the day to do my body check up.... but when I finish my bath..... No one remember that me and my bro suppose to go for... check up....so after bath I went back on my bed to sleep... but when I about to doze off..... my mom bang on my stupid door and say got to go down.... What the hell... damm it... hate it lah....

Do the stupid... body check up... make me damm sleepy and tired.... haiz... today... do all those stupid x-ray....scan and etc.... really make me tired like hell....the worse is... my old sickness is back god bless me.... haha...today... discover few new thing... and my uncle said to me... a new word ....."totally".... btw who cares... i don't care..... throat infection.... blood pleasure... high..... so...."Pls sleep early... eat more vegetables.... fruits... eat steam food and can only eat soup n porridge.... " really damm funny.... bull shit... you think I would eat all this type of things... the best part is totally... wahaha funny.... wait long long lah....Er Jiu... don't tell me the same thing again and again.... and you very funny loh...condition worse now...... yes I did not eat medicine... and did not follow any of the things... that you said... but so what....I don't care.... so pls stop telling me... totally need to follow..... and doing body check up... is you all force me to do... so pls after doing the check up... no need to tell me anything.... and pls don't every time say the same things to me... thanks ... I hate it so much....

I realize that... I am so pro... sleep for half a day..... haha long time... did not sleep..... so much.... but today sleep so much make me go crazy...what ever it is... a secret... because... really jialat... wake up.. direct.. come out with such conclusion.... haiz.. today really don't know what... my... brain is thinking.... anyway... just want to say...I hate the whole day... but at least at night time... I still can be happy..... haiz anyway.... do not know what am I doing sitting down here writing this stupid blog..... that do not have any things.... and reason.... really sot liao.... haha.....spend time.... don't know lah..... sian today sucks...

gd and bad.... but still blog....

2011-12-29T02:21:00.000-08:00

Wow... lots of things happen.... I do not know how to show my appreciation.....but the only things I can say... is.. with them around it make my life joyful.... First .... this year I had a great Christmas... I do not know why I have this feeling I enjoy every single moment that we have... together....even this year Christmas... is a bit funny I did not go for a drink..... ended up in Sizziling stone grill and Banafee... but it was really a great time... for me.... I am not sure what... they think as for me... I am happy that's all I know..... But this Christmas...as usual... I went to Orchard Road to look at the... decoration and lighting...... but it really make me disappointed.... because the lighting this year was a failure.... wahaha but anyway... it is different.... because I had a great... company..... so it did not affect my...mood.... say the truth..... for the past... few years... i never ever like to... have Christmas ..... but this year round... I did something dumb... during Christmas.... even me myself do not know the reason....and why... I can make such things... walau... but anywhere... what ever it is... the things... I have said in the car it is 90% comfirm...... already.... so now I just also leave it.... super natural...but I still wanna say that... no matter what... thanks for spending the Christmas.... with me... thanks Lax Didi and Jocelyn Jie Jie ....

Haiz... finish the happy things .... now going in too the sucks part.... what ever it is.. this few day really lots of things.. happen ..... I could not handle it... already.... I have been sitting down at the place for the whole morning... Nothing I have done beside crying and crying... and walk the whole bloody road.... alone... under the rain.... that's all I do... but thanks god that... i get the answer... If not i guess that you all will not be reading this blog..... I may be gone or disappear... for the time being I guess..... I still can stand it... but... the matter is how long I can stand... anyway... just see how..... but there is one question... no matter how.. I seek for the answer I can never ever get the answer... I was wondering that... people ask me please help me to take care people for them... but I was thinking who is the one who can take care of me... my everything I can tell who..... ? the answer is.. no one... and the answer is... a question mark.... anyway never mind... I am ok... because... my greatest wish is.. as long as the people around me happy... I am happy..... one thing I need to say is..... as long as I know that you guys are happy I can live without any worry....whatever it is..... my problem no one can ever ever solve it... because... even me myself... also don't know how to solve it... what ever it is.... my questions .... can never ever... get the answer... maybe just still got to wait..... or what.... I am not sure... I just leave it to the god to decide for me... now... I was wondering... how can I have this type of ability... to not sleep and not eat... haha... maybe I am also testing my limitation... on all this things... But one things... I am glad I have over come this..... there is more things i feel like saying but... it is really to long... to type anyway forget it.... God... when can you give me an answer... for my part....

sleepless night.....

2011-12-21T12:46:00.000-08:00

Haiz... doctor nag... me all the time.... in fact I understand my own health... Is simple... my throat.. is on infection... mode at the moment.... all the while.. the doctor... have been saying that... I can't smoke... no more... cold stuff... no more fried stuff... no more chili.... my throat can't take it anymore... wahaha... because... when I sore throat.... my throat will direct turn... too infection..... haiz... sian

Lately... worse still gastric keep on attacking me...eat also attack... don't eat also attack... what the hell.... haha still the same no chili... and no coffee... walau just begin to feel angry.... what the hell wrong... tired of all this... i really hate my gastric... gastric... just attack me again... just hate it.. until I could not sleep... and want to vomit..... what the hell...

Asthma... lagi jialat.... a bit of cold also can't.... simply attack.... because of this stupid asthma now... make me stop all my sport... and my gym... really funny...just now I was shock... because for a little while.. I could not hear anything... due to my stupid nose... fuck lah... make me could not hear.... haha cold drink can't.. smoke can't... oranges... can't.... chicken can't.... all those cold stuff totally can't... what the fuck... every time when to comsult doctor... the doctor always... sing song... walau...doctor say until I also... know what he want to say... and what my uncle want to say.... haiz...

Really... damm it... because when ever I go consult the doctor... the doctor would just say to me.... :
NO SPICY FOOD,
NO FREID FOOD,
NO COLD FOOD,
NO SMOKING,
and the last sentence would always be... if... you do not follow... your sick package would be... gastric, asthma and throat infection.... walau for the past few year I listen to this dialog until... I can memorize every word the doctor... have said.... shit lah..... haiz... don't now lah... now special a bit.... please... don't... sleep so late... because our body system... need rest.... walau I just want to say... you think I don't know...or what.....what ever it is..... I am tired of all this for the past few year.... just hate it... cut this subject..... it make my mood worse...

This few day..... lots of things had happen...just do not wish to say and talk... the only things I know is.... I am doing what I wanna do... and I always looking ans seeking... for something and someone... we will see how.... I wonder who can enter into my life....god I really need a break..... I am tired of all this...rubbish....

what a journey of my life....

2011-12-19T20:28:00.000-08:00

I am living in this world.... is not to please anyone.... it is my choice whether... to explain it or not.... because... I do not need to do any explain.... because I find.. it there is no need to do so.... don't ever treat people like an idiot.... I know your post is...refering to me..... 8 years friend... you still don't understand me.... what you want me to do.... If you still want to say it this way... then nothing... much I can say...I will remain silent.... sometimes.... maybe my feeling was right... through this friendship is never ever true at all.... that is why things would turn out this way.... but anyway... if you continue think it that... way I would just run out from this... friendship....

In another... hand.. sometimes I just hope that I can stop pretending..... and give up all the things.... that I have hold on for so long.... when I sit back and think of the journey of my life... I realize that... I am only.... pretending to... be strong.. and pretend.... to be over my ability.... I begin to feel tired and stress of all this... sometimes... I just wish I could can just cry it out... anytime... but I know it is impossible... for me to do so.... anyway it is all my wishful thinking... all this would never ever happen....

Sometimes.... all I need is someone can really understand what I am thinking and know what I want and maybe lend me a shoulder when i need it...... but nobody would never ever know... because... even my family had raise me up for 25 years... they still do not know what I want and what I am thinking about... what a shame...... I begin to feel tired... of all this.....

I feel like asking......
What is Love?
What is Life ?
What is Friendship?
What is Family ?

Can anyone tell me what is all this... I finally realize that non of this is in my journey for the past 20 years.... I am totally a failure..... I do not wish to continue all this....Sometimes... I am silent is because I am really feeling tired... when my emotional.. come I just could not help it... because I do what I can do beside... hurting myself... I know it is... stupid but I have no choice... because... I do not who I should talk too... maybe my self protection is to strong..... is not because... I do not trust... is just because... I can't find anyone to trust.... I trusted her so much... But this is the end I got... what more I can do... tell me what I should do... anyway all this make me think that... I self protection strong... is not a wrong... pretending is the right thing to do.... and being silent... is the best way... of stoping myself from getting hurt.. and maybe this is the best way ... to solve all this thing.... For all this year.... I am only seeking for someone ..... that can really understand me..... and lend me a shoulder..... that's all I ask for..... but it seems to be like so hard... but never mind... I will continue... until I found one.... for the time being..... I only need to pretend and fake it out... everything..... I do not know how long more... but if one day I could not take it anymore... maybe in this world... no longer have... Wong Joyce Lyn.... will see how... anyway... may god bless... all my friends... especially the few of you....

fail... i hate people around me unhappy...

2011-12-18T23:41:00.000-08:00

I was thinking...I may not be perfect... I may not be the best in everything... but all I wish is... I hope that everyone around me... could be happy.... I just don't want to see all this happen around me... I am feeling so lost when I look at all this happen to all of you... I am not happy... at all... all the time I only try the best to make the people around me to be happy... but no matter how... I try how I do I fail to do so.... I hate to see the people around me... like this....especially... the people that I care....Lots of things you guys may not tell... but i know that you all are not happy... I am tired.... I don't like all this..... I am totally lost.... maybe the only things... I can do is just hide from all this... and do not wish to talk and do not wish to say....

Sometimes... I just want to say that... no matter what I am not happy... I don't mind is just that I hope that you all would be happy....tired...lots of things I 是i i could just hide.. but when I realize something... I feel that I am so lost... what ever it is... I just want to say... no matter what... I just want you guys to be happy that's all.... I don't like when the people around me.. to get hurt... I can't stand anyone of you getting hurt....

Since morning till now .... I did not feel happy at all.... the reason I do not know... at all... maybe is just because... I realize that... I have fail to do so.... I just wanna say that... maybe is my problem.....I really hate it so much when I see all this happen.... maybe I just need time to... solve all this....My wish is just that... everyone could be happy... that's all I ask for..... All of you to me is...more like a family to me....rather a friends..... Just feel like hide...and cry now....

Haiz....

2011-12-14T23:14:00.000-08:00

Why is human being so complicated.... I am just curious about this particular question.... I have been wondering that why human can be so scary.... sometimes... I just do not know what the hell wrong with myself.... I just want to... stop guess what is the people around me thinking... because I am tired of guessing... I just want to leave as normal as possible.... I do not wish to make my life so complicated.... I realize that..... all the while my life is like a racing... everyday I have to think... and think.... I wonder is my problem or what... Haiz... what the hell I am thinking.... anyway.. I no matter how I think I would never ever get the answer...because... human is complicated....

Lately... lots of thing happen around me...but all of it seems to be happen without any reason...I just want to know that... why it's all so complicated... all the thing had happen appear for a reason... but when I really spend time thinking...I will feel... all this happen to be like no reason....anyway... I am tired of thinking and guessing....

Now I hope that I can go to a place where by no one can ever find me.... too just start a new me... I want to get out off all this stupid things...I am tired of everything..... I am wondering... sometimes the more I try to act... or the more I try to pretend... certain things... would just impose on me...haiz... Wong Joyce Lyn you are stupid idiot people in this world.... I just want to say that... maybe most of the time... I just run away from everything I face... the only reason is... I am scare of getting hurt again and again.... I am tired of waiting... I am tired of pretending.... I am tired of acting that I am happy..... I just wish to tell... wish to say... and the most important thing is... all i need is someone that can understand me... show me concern... can listen to my sorrow.....anyway... i think it is impossible...haiz... don't know lah... how I wish I could just... do what I want... and what I wish to do... only wish is I hope that what I am waiting for would come true...in fact... sometimes I know the answer.. but i just refuse to face it... i guess....do not know what I should do... who can save me... who can tell me...forgot to say god... please tell me what I should I do... and I am being to protecting... that is why the door in my... heart is forever close.....haiz... I hate it since the day... till now... my door is forever close... what the hack.... if I open... i may get hurt... if I close forever... it will be the same.... tired of all this..... hate it....

my...mind

2011-12-13T05:21:00.000-08:00

I begin to ask myself since morning till now..... I finally got the answer.... I would choose friends rather than.... love... the reason is very clear... because the example is simple... it is clearly stated.... show that ..... friends can be forever.... lover don't... Me and Miss Ang is the best.... example of all... so in between me and you I choose...friends.... because... I know that if I really choose to date you... I will lost you as a friend.... I may not lost you... only I may lost the both of you.... but what ever it is... I have choose this as my answer so I hope that you would not feel any uneasy.... I have continue asking myself one question ...... the conclusion is.... I love Miss Lovies Ang Chiew Fong ..... towards you... is just as a good friends and a little bit more of.... elder sister... that's all that is sometime... i concern about you.... Maybe the way I treat you... would let you feel a bit weird... but i can ensure that one thing is... I do not want to lost you as a friend... because it would... be a regret things in life for me......it is clearly show that... my mind is playing with me.... but lucky i over come everything... if not i really will lost someone like you... in my life.... Just wanna say that..... I do not want to loose you as a friend..... May God bless u forever....

Stupid mine.... nearly cause me to loose the person that i love most.... and nearly cause me... to lost a very good friend.... lucky... i am stable enough to over come it...... Lovies Ang Chiew Fong.... nothing gonna change my love for you... sometimes how i wish i would able to let you see... my love evelyn... account... in that account is everything about the 2 both of us....from the start to now is all.... i really hope that.... you can see it... but i do not know how to pass it to you.... the particular.... account is all our story....... you are my everything... you are my life... just want to say... I love you... is not a joke... and love you there is no reason....nothing gonna change mey love for you..... Ang Chiew Fong.... I am waiting for you no matter what or how long it takes......but thanks god i have truly.... know what i want..... May god bless all of us save and forever..... and i

i just want to made myself clear......

2011-12-07T06:14:00.000-08:00

I am not that kind of person..... You know I love you..... I would not do anything to hurt you.... I can just swear to the god.....I did not ask anyone to disturb you..... If really someone disturb you.... can you please tell me that who is that idiot who disturb you.... I would like to find out who is he.... because I really want to know that why he can say such thing..... I really did not do such thing at all.... but whether you believe it a not... I just want to say that.... I only know how to love you more.... I don't even thing of hurting you...... and I just want to say 人在做天在看.... I can't even stand you from getting any hurt.... so I can say I did not do such thing to you.....

Jie I just want to say that.... I do not know that.... how much you know about me... but I can say that... my love to you will never ever change.... The reason... I prefer to type everything here.... is i do not want you to feel anything and I do not want to you to feel stress... btw i just wanna say that I do not whether you still love me or not.... but you can't stop me or prevent me from loving you..... Jie I love you....

how i wish i can just bring you with me together... where ever i go......

2011-12-06T09:28:00.000-08:00

This few months... I been to so many place..... Since the day when we start fighting... till now... I have been to so many place...... I have been to so many place..... no matter the Singapore Zoo, Har Par villa, Melaka, Penang, and Pahang..... I hope that all this place I wish I can have the chance to bring you.....Every place then I have been.... How I wish I can bring you along..... I really hope that I have the chance to bring you along.....In fact the recent Pahang trip... I have been telling Peggy...if you were here you will love all this places.... but I do not have the chance to bring you alone..... Jie i really hope that... I still have the chance to bring you go...... the trip without you with me had never been perfect at all.... Do you know a not the trip without you is just like a trip does not exits..... Jie i just want to tell you how much I love you..... no matter what I love you so much...... I just want to say that no matter what.... I love you.... it is true..... I did not ask anyone to disturb you... I do not know why you can say that ..... I find people disturb you...... but I really did not ask anyone to do so..... I love you more than anything...... I would not do such thing......because I love you..... I do not know..... what you want and what is the reason you say such thing.......

I love you it is all true... but I do not know why you can just say things... like this...... everyday I have been telling me myself that... I love you.... so I got to let you know that I have change a lot..... But I do not know why always there is such things happen...... and I do not who is the one who always... say bad thing about me... but I am sure is I love you... I would not do anything to hurt you..... I never love someone...... until me myself already do not know what more I can do.... I have already...... lost myself.....I love you is never ever a joke.....n loving you is my greatest wish of everything......... I have never regret that loving you and I have never ever regret knowing you...... in fact I love you more than anything......

Sometime I just want to say.... that I love you... is a burden to you... but I am willing to change... but no matter how I do or how hard I do... it will always turn out to be sucks.......from the start I just scared that.... I will loose you.... In fact the..... the problem... is always... I break my promise... the master also say the same as what you say..... I am sorry..... but I know that now..... I promise you I will not touch those things..... I really do not touch it at all..... I have already... do it..... since the day...... since the last time I promise you I will not touch it.... I really do not touch it... till now......When every time I think of you I feel like want to touch.... that kind of thing but I had over come it.... till now I never touch it.... do you know that when every time I think of you.... I only can look at the photo that we take together.... and when I look at it.... I realize that we were so happy together.... I just want to tell you that.... I want to bring you to all kind of places... and take lots... of photos together..... I know now you earn more money then me.... and you do not need me to bring you... but I just hope that you can think of the photo you make for me.... you said that.... this is not the first place that we go together..... and there is lot of places waiting for us..... Jie I really hope that all this can come to and end.... I hope that you can give me a chance.... to once again love you... and give you the happiness..... I will not give you any stress..... I always asking... this punishment is enough.... I really learn my lesson.... Jie I do not know how long I need to wait but... I will wait.... because... I love you..... is not a joke or play only.... In fact... I thought I can forget you and find another one... but I am totally wrong..... there is so many people enter into my love and ask me to be their boyfriend..... but I can't because... I love you.... no matter how good they treat me..... I only love you..... I do not know why.....but I only know that..... I love you....

People tell me how you say about me......but I only say that I love you.... they say I am stupid.... Every night I still cry...but who can know..... you may think that... I have forget about you..... but I have never ever...... I always go here and there is I do not want to hide all this.... because I do not want to let people see all this.... Jie I just hope that I can have the chance to love you once again... and I hope that I can bring you to all places together and take lots of photo together.... Jie I really love you so much..... nothing gonna change my love for you.....

something came in my mind... just a click but it is rather confuse

2011-10-10T03:28:00.000-07:00

I was playing game, and listening to songs, suddenly something click in my mind.... and say... what the hell wrong with me..... At first I don't even border about this matter... but after... a few minutes..... I start thinking about the things the click in my mind... It is rather confusing.... but till now I still do not have any answer yet....

I was wondering, I have live for 24 years how come the women that enter into my life is the same.... no matter towards my god sister or my girlfriend..... when I think back everything... it tell me that their... character and pattern are the same.......

I have 2 god sister their..... character is the same.... but anywhere..... for the time being.... now I am only concern with the god sister that I love the most but also the one that hurt me the most... any where i was asking myself that... why my sister say the love i gave her is to much... but in another hand my ex say to me... my love towards her is to little... I am really confusing what I should do.... sometime.. I just want to say ... that my love to you will never ever change... because...... you will always be the one that I love the most.....

Recently I want to date a girl... I hope that.... she would not be the same as them... what I ask for.... is I hope that... on my birthday... I can see my sister... appear in front on me..... Anyway... for the time being I just need to do what i suppose to do... but no matter what my love towards you my love would never ever change.......

my feeling towards.. her my sis...

2011-09-06T00:34:00.000-07:00

Who will wait for you?

Me...

Who will always love you ?

Me...

Who will love you forever?

Me...

Who willing to change for you ?

Me...

Who will be there when you encounter problem?

Me...

Who will do everything for you?

Me...

I am willing to do all this things for you... because you will always be my only sister.. what ever it is i am willing to do anything for you... Do you know everyday i hide everything I fake a smile... just to show that I am happy everyday... but who knows my heart is crying everyday... no one .. only me myself know... i just want to say I will be waiting for the day to come.... I just hope that you will able to give me the chance like what we use to have.... I hope that we can be able.. to be happy just like before... sis i love you... miss you... hope you can know it...

i hv made up my mind...

2011-06-22T13:00:00.000-07:00

What i done is not enough.... or you just think that I am a person that can be kick around... What i hv done is not enough... sometimes i really feel that the things I have done to you may not be enough... but I just I want to say that...this time i hv made up my mind that...i give u 2days if you still don't want to care about me then i have nothing to say i just hav to really end my life... I am really tired... I do not have the ability to so so any more... i just want u to know that i love you more than anything.... What i want is really very very simple... is that really so hard for... you... if you love me can you just give me one chance once for all... you know how important you are to me... but i really don't know why you can do this to me... Jie pls lah i beg you... i really do not hv the ability to carry on any more... i am really struggling... I do not want all this to happen but i just hope that you can at least give me the chance to do so... i really need you very badly... you are my everything... without you I really do not have the ability to carry on... I need you badly...Jie pls lah i beg you.. can you just don't treat me like this... I do not have the courage to carry on any more... i really do not know what will come first... die or i will fall first... Jie pls lah I beg... you... i need you know now... I do not know what i can do any more... every day i only can act to be happy....in order to cover all my sorrow... serious you know nothing about all this... Jie pls lah i beg you... don't do this to me... i really going to fall soon... Jie pls lah give me the last chance i beg you lah....

Tanjung Leman... trip with my be loved Jie...

2011-06-16T03:46:00.000-07:00

After so long that we have fight this the trip we go with each other... my heart to you is still the same no matter what. My love to you will never ever change.... because you are my only sister... no matter how you treat me...I still need to tell you, that was a sister always a sister... this will never ever change.... what ever you want to say is up to you..... i just want you to know that... I will never ever give up no matter what.

I don't know what is your feeling now... but my feeling towards you will never ever change this is forever.... I have the ability to go back what we suppose to be.... My love to you can ever never die... because I love you to much.... I know you doubt my feeling toward you but I only can say that... you are the only one that I cares the most... you are my every thing... without you I really don't know what I can do.... No matter what I don't mind how you treat me... what I know is how I should treat you.....

When I took this photo I feel that I should be the one standing beside you... I should be with you all the while... N i hope that I am the one that can company you all the time... when there is a sunset... I hope that I am the one that can give you everything you needed... and I hope that I am the person that can give you the love you need... I hope that I am the person that can do everything with you... I really hope that I am te one that you will kiss and to hug.... now everything I just hope that you we can become like what we use to be... Jie you know how much I love you....

Now my only wish is that we can be like the star fish like this.... we can be forever together.... on the beach... and I hope that we can just enjoy every single moment till the last day of life.... I always thought that the love that I gave you is too little... but when I look back i actually i have done a lot of thing for you... but you still think that it is not enough... so the only thing I can say is I will still give you the love that i always do, but i will not give you any pressure... i just want to tell you that I love you so much.....

feel like write something....

2011-04-06T06:51:00.000-07:00

it had been long, i did not write anything... haha finally i got time to write.... lately so many things had happen it is just like it happen yesterday.....it had lots of happy moment and bad things... haha but it is all past already... anyway everyday is a new day...

lately i miss my sister so much... she is like so busy no time for me also... the time we together is getting lesser everyday... our time per week is like less then 6 hours.... i feel like we have a gap in between us... sometimes i think how long can i keep this relationships... every single day i am like so lost without her... but she don't know it at all... i really feeling moody when she is not with me... when ever i know that she hv more time with her friend i feel that i am like nobody to her.... i really hv that kind of feeling....

she always say that she is just beside me... but i don't think so at all....i feel that she is damm far from me... i really can't feel anything.... sometimes i think is i demand to much....reason i do all this thing is bcoz i can't stand that she is not with me.... hope that all this will past soon... i am really tired of all this.... sian

in order hand i hv some happy moment such as go holiday with my friend.... n i hv bought a new laptop and a video camera..... sometimes really thanks to my friend bcoz when my sis not with me at least they are there to company me...i just everyday is a good n great day for me......

the first time i meet such person.....

2010-03-13T21:53:00.000-08:00

that day i when to the funeral... u know wht i see.... u will think this is unbelievable.... people who when for the funeral all feeling sad n down.... n people must pay respect.. but that day i realize that in this word there is some kind of brainless people.....

the family is feeling sad n down... but they are some family that are not so close when to the funeral like n idiot.... Chinese funeral there is a ceremony where by all the family member need to do some thing together with the monk..... so the family member do accordingly with the monk sadly n crying, but during the ceremony, the family that are not so close when to the funeral like some kind of wedding dinner or gathering.... OMG the worse thing is during the ceremony they are not suppose to to walk around, smoking n talk.... but they really walk around like an monkey, talk like some kind of people that never talk for ages.... OMG does they know the word " respect" but come blame lah.... bcoz thier parent never teach them how to respect......

infect i shd say that the whole family are some kind of monkeys...... the old one the young want are the same... haiz wht a sad thing...... the worse thing is during the ceremony they did not follow the law at all...... now i finally know the word father like son....... haha...

as i say monkeys is smart but brainless that's y they do all the things that an idiot will do.......i just can't understand y a simple respect they also can't do.....OMG but sometimes monkey also now how to respect n listen to human word..... this brainless people can't understand human work don't know wht type of language shd use to talk to them.... anyway this people will have retribution one day......... the same thing will happen to them.......

haiz brainless people is like that de lah..... we will wait n see the retribution that they have in future....... idiot idiot idiot...........but i feel sad for this brainless people OMG let's silent for them 5 minutes..... idiot sad

damm sian loh come back for chinese new year........

2010-02-12T07:51:00.000-08:00

chinese new year shd be very happy de, but my chinese new year damm sian de loh... i am a bit tired of coming back..... how i wish that i am at JB alone or atleast i can go find my love one rather than come back here to hv all kind of fan thing..... i hate to come back here, i will never ever come back her for new year.....anymore...... i will be going back to JB on the second day chinese new year... haha can't wait..... i want to say one word i hate chinese new year........ i don't want to chinese new year..........

fucking ARS.....

2010-01-25T21:16:00.000-08:00

wht the fuck..... i am tired with the ARS mentor...... every word SO WHAT ....... wtf he trying to do take revenge on us or trying to make us fail his subject..... u know wht we cn call him MR TAN SO WHAT.... he is really damm too much i really damm hate her loh.... if he still continue like that i promise i will make her suffer.... idiot... i will make him suffer........ idiot i hate ARS..... if u still REJECT my assignment i will make sure u will suffer....... i hate ARS...

wow damm fast class going to start soon.....

2010-01-02T07:18:00.000-08:00

just 2 more day to go, the class going to start again .... OMG when school open got to be prepare for the exam... haiz sian lah... really damm worried scared that i will fail mor then 1 subject haiz who can tell me how.... wht i know is i am going to fail my QM the worse n the one that i hate most.........

i really damm worried now. if i fail got to resit again i just hate the subject... i really don't want to resit the subject..... haiz OMG the only subject that i am not worry is FA... this subject i think B is not a problem as for the IT i think B shd be able too.... but for the FOM i hope it can pass will do... haiz...... i really worried lah can't pass i will die bcoz it may pull down my GPA for me to enter a U....

pls lah let me pass lah... bcoz i put in lots of effort.... pls lah.... anyway class going to start i feel so happy haha if not i will be damm boring lah.... haha......

times fly...........

2009-12-29T00:50:00.000-08:00

OMG 2 more days to go....... n it will be the end of 2009, this year really fly damm fast.... it just seems to be like yesterday...... this year alot of happy n unhappy things had happen.... lucky n unlucky things as well... haiz i really don't know wht to say wahaha......

the most luck thing had happen with me in this year are i get to know a special person that make my life colorful..... she is someone that gave me lots of love n care...... she let me know in this world still got someone like her around.... she really care about me n she really is the best person in this world......

the unlucky thing that i hv is i meet my ex boyfriend he is the worse guy i hv never meet in this world.... haiz.....

but anyway this year going to end n all the bad good n unhappy happy thing would be n memory for me... haha ..... by the way wish all of u hv a good start for the coming next 2010... hahaha i want to wish everyone a happy new year n leave all the sad memory behind n start a new great journey........

y i hv that kind of feeling.........

2009-12-28T23:21:00.000-08:00

she has change alot..... i was thinking is my problem or hers... does she know anot how much i care about her n how much 我爱你。。。。i was thinking wht had happen between the both of us... it's bcoz i treat her not good enough or wht.... the way this few day she talk to me is totally different i was thinking is my problem or wht i really want to know wht happen to the both of us.... when ever i ask her wht happen she just say nothing at all but actually she got something in her mind is just that she refuse to tell me.... she always want to keep everything to herself... haiz....

i really hope that i can understand her more rather than no... totally don't know wht is she thinking, this few day she really good at saying up to u.... i begin to hate this word bcoz every thing i ask her she will say up to u..... i rather follow every single word or anything that she say.... than listen to she say up to u...... she is now totally everything also say up to u... i can sure that she is angry but i just don't know wht she angry about .... haiz y lah she everything also don't want to tell me.... i just want her to know that no matter wht i will listen to wht u say..... u know that this relationship is so important to me.... so pls don't make me like an idiot.... i know u always call me idiot but i am not ok ........ 我爱你。。。。

pls leave me alone..

2009-12-27T08:10:00.000-08:00

no matter how hard u try.... nothing u can do.... because my haert already die when the moment that i said u r non of my concern anymore...... hei u know wht i am so happy now because last nite i already decided to stop myself from thinking n care about u.... i guess last nite u think that i would be happy to see u... but i can tell u a million sorry that u were wrong.... haha since that day i say everything i will return to u..... my heart n feeling towrds u is already end.....

do u know anot when last nite when i say both of us has come to the end ...... i was thinking to offer u a free ride to were u want to go.... ut things change when the minutes u push me.... i am glad that it makes me understand wht type of person u are.... no matter wht i will need to say a thanks to u, because if it is not u i won't know that there are some other people that much, i mean 1000 times better than u.... btw this is the end of u leave me alone......

Melaka Trip......... nice

2009-12-27T06:10:00.000-08:00

on the 22 to 24 the four of us when to melaka trip.... haha it was fun... me , my sister, firdaus n jansen when together after our exam....

here we come melaka this is the red house....

me n my sister at the eye of malaysia ..... damm scarry
we when to the melaka we go for a ride in the eye of malaysia.... it was so nice n scary because we r scared of the height... we enjoy ourself on the eye of malaysia....

we on the becha... haha look we damm enjoy.........
althought we enjoy the becha but we got cheat by the person because we pay RM 80 for the stupid becha n for 2 becha we pay for RM160 OMG... but the 4 of us enjoy ourself because this is our first time on the becha... hehe.... but this will be the first n the last time that we will sit the becha.....

our supper satay chalop......
i eat satay chalop all the tme but this time is the best because this time i eat satay chalop with my friend n that is the first time they eat satay chalop... they find it intresting haha.........

having our durian cendol in san shu gong.......

me, firdaus n jansen.....

the four of us..... so crazy but i really enjoy myself haha.....

22 birthday.....

2009-12-13T10:00:00.000-08:00

the unforgettable birthday celebration form my sister...... i am so happy even all my best friend hv gone oversea to study.... can't help me celebrate my birthday..... but i still got my sister... haha she gave me the best present.... thanks jie...... beside my sister i also got to thanks to Jansen... haha thanks alot........ n one thing about this special birthday celebration are i hv a Christmas birthday cake so special.... haha

me n Jansen

the three of us hehe....

me n my lovely jie...........

beside that i also need to thanks my baby that help me celebrate my birthday n make me a cake n cook a dinner for me.... even my baby don't know how to cook but she still cook a gd dinner for me... haha n hand made a birthday cake... baby thanks .....
thanks to all my friend that remember my birthday n all the wishes from my old friend, secondary classmates, gd friend n golfer friend n of course my relative.... thanks to all of u..... i am so happy to get all the flying wish......

even though my best friend in taiwan n uk hv send me a birthday wish.... haha thanks apple n sarah.... miss u guys alot..... anyway a million thanks to all of u.......

lost n don't know wht i sh do....

2009-11-02T20:57:00.000-08:00

Why now only she know me?
Why she everything also never tell me?
Why i can't give her the best thing in this world?
Why i don't have the ability to buy the things that she wants?
Why i can't make her happy?
Why i can't guess what is on her mind?
Why i can't be the person that always make her laugh?
Why i can't solve her problem?
Why am i so hopeless ?
Why am i so useless?
Why my ability is limited?

There is so many why that can't be solve.... i was thinking why, why, why and why .... i feel sorry for her... i am not a good sister for her because i can't give her anything at all... i can't make her happy and smile always... why i am so hopeless... i was thinking last nite.... if she had know me earlier than that idiot person, i hv no problem giving her anything... but why she know me so late why.... sometime i feel that god like to make fun of people... but in other hand it is also a good thing because god make this arrangment 100% hv it's on reason.... i may not be able to give her the best thing now, but one day i will hv the ability to give her the best thing in the world, the god gave me a good present that's her... lots of thing she tell me i can't help her just bcoz of my limited ability.... i wan asking myself wht i hv give her..... nothing...i always say want to make her happy but nothing i give her........ no matter what i wll try to give her the best once i hv the ability... for the time bieng u just got to bear with me ok.... love u jie..... n miss u......

2day is a bad day for me i guess.....

2009-10-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

2day wake up early morning an log in to my face book n notice my happy farm vegetable is stolen by 2 idiot friends.... but this is not the worse.... after i finish harvest all the thing in the happy farm.... i when out for breakfast with my lovely jie... in her yi yi wantan mee stall...so i reach there n hv our breakfast happily, after finish she got to go for her work then i head to the mcdonald to do some online...... so after a few hour i when home than i when to have tea with my xiao yi.... in between we chit chat about my academy n about my boyfriend.

after long chat i when home waiting to go find my lovely jie....... but the weather does not seem to be very good, but i don't care i still when out to find my jie in the heavy rain. i reach there i find her. at first we talk very nicely n happily. but guess wht? we actually fight....... after awhile she show me black face...... i was angry so i walk off, after that she keep saying sorry to me, at that piont of time i feel that the sorry word is an idiot word i totally hate that word.....

so at that point of time we were doing our own things, than she when to her friend party i was at my god sis cafe... after she finish her party she came over to my god sis cafe........over there that time i ask her wht happen just now? she say that the thing that i have say is to much... she angry with the thing i hv said.... but my intention was only telling her not to waste the money on the phone, bcoz i find it is not value for money at all....when she tell me off this my heart was deeply hurt i just feel like die than wht i also no need to dobut i can't bcoz the force don't allowed me to do so.... haiz... the nite when on here n there but in the end it was settle, i know she was very angry with me... n i know i hv done something wromg.... a million sorry to her.... i really don't know this word can cause so many misunderstanding... but pls remeber that i love u all more than anything n care about u all the most... is just that i don't know wht more i can do ..... sorry for making u feel that....

things are very complicated.....

2009-10-29T22:39:00.000-07:00

from the day we know each other... it was just like yesterday.... we know each other for about 2 months, i guess.... we are getting along well but some of the time we still fight with each other... but all this was just a while, after a while we are are fine together... no matter wht i just want u to know that how important are u to me... n how much i care of u.... my love towards u r unpredictable..... don't ever doubt my love towards u.... sometime i feel hurt when u take the love that i gave u, n compare to the idiot person.... sometime the way i treat u is 100 times better that the way i treat the idiot person... pls don't ever ever compare the way i treat u....jie i just want u to know how much i love u... i will promise wht ever it's ..... i want u to be happy that's it.... will try my best to do wht every u want.... love u.....^-^

u r he best give from god beside my family...

2009-10-23T10:08:00.000-07:00

jie u r one of the greatest give from god to me... jie when i am with u i feel so comfortable....u hv totally replace that idiot person... with u around i feel that kind of warm n love... i know how much u love me n dote me.... i can feel it, u may not tell me but the love u gave towards me i can feel it..... n it is a strong want.. as u say everything no need u to admit it i also can feel it.. i know u always talk to the doll how much u care about me, but u just like me feel shy to tell me... haha actually we hv the same problem dare not say.... every moment we are together i feel i am the luckiest a mei in the world... even though u treat me very fierce, but i still feel i am the luckiest a mei in the world. i know u treat me fierce is for my own good... sometimes u r really very fierce... i scared of u... but i accept it coz i know everything u do i will listen coz u r my one n only one sister.... looking at our pattern people will thing that i we are sister haha.... but wht ever it's thanks for giving me the love that i need.. thanks jie...
we can know each other now n we can be sister now is bcoz we r feted to know each other, no matter wht we must cherish everything... jie thanks for everything u gave me....

me n jie together.... look the happiest moment n i am so lucky n the warm that i hv

i am lucky to hv her... i feel so lucky...

2009-10-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

Do you know how much i care?

Do you know how much i love you?

Do you know how important are you to me ?

Do you know how much i dote you ?

all the question above only got one answer, it is unlimited.....

my life is full of color when u enter, my life was in a mess when i don't know u, but know is different.. u make me feel that my life got meaning... bcoz of u i feel love, my life is mieserable without u, without u i don't think i will be happy, without u i won't feel that i am a lucky person.. u r a great give from god to me.. i can say that u r an angle given my god to me.... with u around everything wil be find bcoz i know that u will give me a helping hand... with u around i hv no worry.... i feel so comfortable when u r with me... i can say that u r the right one for me... my life is brighten up by u... i want to tell u a million thanks... without u i think i don't think i won't be happy like now.....

when u come my house to stay i can feel a sister warm... i can feel the gd nite kiss from u... i can feel that kind of family love which i can't get most of the time... when everytime i think of u i feel that everything is fine n i feel that i am the most lucky person in this world.... at this point of time u enter my life n pull me up from the darkness...
long time ago i want to tell u but i just don't hv the yong zhi to tell u n i feel so shy to tell... but 2day i decided to write her bcoz i want u to know that all the while this is what i wanted to tell u.... all this in my heart for very long already.. finally i make up my mind to write... all this is from my heart.... pls don't doubt my love towards u.. 爱你。。。。。1314 jie...♥ i am happy knowing u n i am happy that u enter my life n give me lots of love... n dote me alot ... u r my everything.. i hv given the whole heart to u pls don't ever ever leave me...

wht hopeless n useless person.........

2009-10-09T03:35:00.000-07:00

hei guess wht after so many thing happen, i realize that the person is me Wong Joyce Lyn. i don't know y but i only feel that all the unlucky things always very near to me..... i really need to do something to make myself more lucky.

there is lots of thing i wish to do n hope to do but it is impposible for me to accomplish, i wish that i hv the abbility to do all the things that i wish to do..... i want them to feel happy but it seems like always make them feel unhappy wht the hell wrong with me...... i feel i am so useless bcoz i only make them feel unhappy......... i want them to be happy but always make them unhappy. they alwyas say i am happy they will be happy..... i know that but i want them to be the happiest persons in the world....... i really a hopeless n useless person in the world bcoz the basic thing also i can't do wht more want them to be the happiest person in the world n protect them........

sometimes i feel so sorry bcoz the things they wish me to do i can't do...... i want to do but i hv a limitation...... i will try my best to do so ....... but lots of thing i need help......... my power is limited so i need someone to help me.......the more power u hv the better u would be..... i will do wht ever they like not the things they don't like..... and sometimes i require so help..........

as long as u all happy i am happy

i want the four of them to be the happiest person.......

2009-10-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

first i feel that i am the happiest person in the world bcoz i hv the four of them...... but i feel damm unlucky to hv that idiot as my god sister..... wtf really make a big mistake..... that idiot make me feel that i am an idiot also, everything to go accordingly to that idiot...... but lucky know i realise that the idiot is not as good as i thought.......

lucky now i hv the four of them, i really scared that the idiot will hurt the four of them, if that idiot dare to touch 1 of them, that idiot will be sorry for sure, anywhere as long as they are happy i will be happy.......

this few day a lot of things happen but lucky all hv been settle thanks god...... finally now i realize that there is someone better then the idiot..... with her i can find a sister love that i wish to hv and at least i treat her well n nice she will appreciate it...... wht ever it's i am lucky to hv her.... i know how much she care about me, but there is some thing i wish to tell her, but i can't say it out bcoz i feel shy....... she is important to me but sometime i just don't know how to say it out. i feel that i am stupid haha..... a lot of thing she do is for my own good so i am willing to listen to her, but she always say that i give her black face..... haha but i never... haiz don't know y she say like thatmay be bcoz of my face i think but my face is always like that, i only hope that she can trust me..... i just want to tell her that i am willing to do anything and listen to her..... that's it, she always is my jie jie.......

baby i love u so much u know how much...... i want u to know that no matter wht u r still the important person to me. pls don't everything keep to urself. i feel so sorry bcoz that idiot alwyas try to make the both of us fight but lucky our love is very stable.... haha baby no matter wht happen i will be at ur side.... so u no need to worry.... every thing i will help u.... just remember that no matter wht i am there for u..... nothing will happen to me de i am so strong bcoz i need to protect u........love u ........... so much

as for the one at home, sometime i feel she is a bit fan, but i know she care about me bcoz wht everything things she do is for my future so nothing can't complain, she is still the best haha.......

walau the last one is my damm gd friend loh.... she is much older than me but we get along very well haha.... i just want to say thanks to her..... haha anyway just want to say a million thanks to the four of them..... thanks god for giving me such a precious give......i just one u all to remember as long as u all happy i will be happy........

melaka trip........... when melaka trip but never stop at grandma house......haha

2009-10-06T22:10:00.000-07:00

hehe going in to the zoo..... just love it......
see we are so enjoy......so enjoy in melaka............. just love it

inside the car going to melaka......

we finish our chicken rice.....

look at the chicken rice.........

on the 4 October i went to melaka with my lovely ajie....... haha we begin our journey in the morning around 8 am. we started driving from my house..... haha even it is an early morning drive i feel so sleepy but i enjoy the drive.......wht to do as i say i want her to be happy so wht ever she ask for i will do....

haha the funny thing is when i was driving she say she want to company me n she say she will not sleep but in the end she actually sleep inside the car, but inside the car she company me for very long ,she actually cut alot of fruits for me and she, buy my favourite tomato n she feed me bcoz i was busy driving walau as i say she is my sister that's y she know wht i want haha..... we reach melaka around 10 plus, so i decided to bring her go to my grandma town t hv our breakfast, so i drive all the way to tampin and hv the famous mee, so we order our mee n we actually take photo of the mee. we finish our mee, then we decided to call her sister n ask where they are bcoz we suppose to meet in the A' Famosa, water world. so after we call her sister we discover that they were at pagoh, so i decided to bring her go air panas gadek. so we reach that place n take a few photo then we decided to go A famosa to take some photo n wait for her sister.... we really take alot of photo not few......haha

so after awhile her sister reach already we waited for someone else haha..... after everyone was here then we buy the ticket to go into the A Famosa water world. the ticket cost about RM 40 per person.... haha we hv great fun over there......

around 4 pm me n jie decided to set off to melaka bcoz i promise her to bring her go melaka to jalan jalan, so the both of us take our bath n get ready to go to melaka... haha on the way to melaka she fall asleep again... but it was just a short journey, guess wht when we reach melaka we when to the jocker street to find some food bcoz i was hungry.... so we decided to eat some finger food.... bcoz at nite we decided to gp eat satay chalop..... we need to save some space for the satay shalop....... after finish eating we walk areound the jocker street....... and but something, then i bring her go around the melaka town then we when to sit the tower and look around the whole melaka.... after finish the tour, we when for satay chalop..... OMG the satay chalop damm nice loh, finish the satay chalop walau i feel not well then we stay over nite in melaka.....

then the nex mornig when we wake up we check out actually wanted to go back after breakfast but in the end we go back in the evening haha........ we when n eat the ball chicken rice, after finish i park my car at the history street then we decided to walk around under the hot sun, haha guess wht we took alot of photo..... we walk all over the places, then suddenlly i thought of bringing her to the zoo, so we when to our car n drive to the zoo. the zoo was so cheap the ticket cost about RM7 per person, n there is so many things to see OMG is totally worth it....... n we took alot of photo damm nice loh.... after finish the zoo, we decided to go home bcoz it was late....... haha so we start our journey home............. the whole trip is tired but it was tatally fun...... i enjoy it so much..... thank jie love u.......

wht a idiot day.......

2009-09-17T10:42:00.000-07:00

haha hv u ever meet a guy that are damm stupid n idiot haha...... i think u all will never meet this guy, but u guess wht i am damm "lucky" coz i get to meet this guy. guess wht he stupid until trying to make use of me.... wht the f**k he think he is ?

that guy trying to date me that time say until damm gd everything also can but in the end he just talk cock.... haha the worse is he think that i am like other girl..... haha very funny, he say he will break with her ex girlfriend but in the end haha he is just talking cock...... haha

guess wht that day i when to his house knowing that he is in a very damm bad mood, so wanted to company him but in the end u know wht the hell i see.... haha i see he n the pig hug together OMG..... walau i was thinking whether he got pig germs anot coz he is hugging a pig.... now i feel damm gao wek......... loh but can't be blame coz that guy is an idiot then her ex is pig so they are the best pigdiot couple OMG haha.......

i feel i damm gd loh coz i never angry but i keep smile loh, haha........ i make him go crazy coz he think i will so easy forgive him haha.... imposible de loh. walau i feel i really damm tok kong de lah coz i can no need to lose my temper in fornt of him but i can keep smile in front of him... haha he keep asking me don't treat him like that haha... tell u lah u don't waste ur time i already give up on this relation ship haha..... i know i am not enought fat and not enough comfortable for u but i don't mind that u go ahead to find the pig coz i scared got the PIG germs..... haha wish u a gd n pleasant relationship ..... tata

when swimming...... then i feel i damm stupid loh.....

2009-09-09T02:58:00.000-07:00

when swimming in the evening with my dear friend and my dear dear.... we when there actually to see my dear to swim but later on me n my dear friend Qiu Fong decided to swim, o i took my dear car to go home n take my stuff n send my dear friend back to her house o take her stuff..... haha amazing at that pick hour we actually go to each other house in only less than an hour OMG i feel that i drive damm fast loh haha......

so after we reach the place we swim toether we had alo of fun in he swimming pool coz this the first time i swim with my dear friend.... haha we really had a lot of fun there... after awhile my dear dear take out his hand phone trying to take our photo but we don' allowed him to take. bu he keep trying to take in the end he really take our photo.......

the worse is yesterday when playing with my dear friend i actually knock my head on the floor coz we trying to do some stunt in the pool omg....... until 2day my head is damm pain loh,..... haha but it as damm fun co we did alo of supid thins in the pool haha............-

god pls save me.......

2009-09-03T21:57:00.000-07:00

i am tired of a person. i really can't stand her anymore is she still carry on like that i will die very soon. wht i shd do...... no freedom no nothing at home is just like a prison. i don't know how long i can carry on like this. at home i am like a small kid forever no matter how old i am...... wht the fuck....... i need a break, now all i want is just stop treating me like a 5 years old kid......

when i look at some of my friend, they also hv sister n i hv also hv sister but y the sister so far different, haiz....... y lah i hv this type of sister..........i think no one can help me coz she is my sister nothing can be done, one day i will run out form the house n i will never come back if i come back is just for my parent 100% not for her she is nothing to me... i just hate her...... hope she will get married soon everything will be fine..... i want a break n is a long break................

this few day a lot of thing happen.........

2009-09-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

wow long time did not updated my blog..... this few day lots of thing happen....... but lucky all the things happen is not a bad thing...... haha. i hv got myself a new boyfriend and i think for the time being he is ok n he can consider a gd guy.... but he is the only guy that make me cry..... haiz other than that he is ok... haha ..... we hv alot of gd time together and fun... i just feel comfortable with him..... i was thinking how long can i be with him,but if he is ok i think we will go far........

in the mean time i hv been going out with 1 of my friend..... we hv been very close lately n we when out almost everyday without fail.... haha n she is like 2 years older than me n we both study at the same collage but different course...... hehe the both of us get along well maybe bcoz our pattern look almost the same, we just hv alot of gd time together.......

this semester just started not long ago but i already find it boring...... just dont' know wht to say coz the QM2 n FA2 is them boring don't know whether is bcoz the lecturer don't know how to teach or maybe bcoz i don't feel like studying.... so sian loh. i feel like giving up soon coz really very stress worry that can't do well in the exam n my family will disappointed with me, as i say i got to work extra hard in order to get gd result ........

my friend gone back to UK n my other friend going to taiwan soon i going to miss them very alot... hiaz..... but lucky i still got Qiu Fong, my classmate, stella and my other gd friend, if not i will be damm boring......haha lucky got them.......

golf is still my favourite sport.....

2009-07-17T08:47:00.000-07:00

haha after so long did not practice my golf, so just now decided to go practice my golf...... when the first few ball i hit is like a new golfer but after awhile i hit my usual shot damm gd loh... i was happy coz i can still hit the ball damm well. i just feel that golf is still my everything and my favourite sport too..... i just enjoy myself when i play golf. the next few day i think i will play a few round of golf with my friend coz golf competition is coming soon so need to get ready.... haha since now holiday go plenty of time to play golf, i just love it.......... holiday i think will be golf, paint ball, squash, watch movie, go sing and online haha, enjoy enjoy yes but golf is everyday.....

my golf swing still damm gd......

enjoying my holiday......

2009-07-16T09:27:00.000-07:00

yes the first prawn i caught for that day haha.........

that day when to fish prawn .... coz want to relax myself after so many day of study n exam....... i went there with friend, haha..... that her first time fish prawn but she say very fun the first one hour but later on she feel boring, coz she say sit down there for 2 hour is like killing her, fish prawn is not as easy as u think, so after awhile she start to feel sleepy but i continue until i finish the 2 hour... haha i just like to fish prawn i enjoy the moment there and the process. in the end my friend say i always play things that require of patience sucah as golf and fish prawn, i said all this is fun and i also play extreme sport too.... haha wht ever sports also i can play.. hehe

this the biggest prawn i hv caught....

in two hour this the prawn i hv caught......

hurray exam finally finish haha......... just feel relief ^.^

2009-07-14T06:55:00.000-07:00

just about to go collage for last paper...... IT 1

after the exam........

yes finally i hv finish the exam.....2day the last paper IT 1, i am damm happy 2day coz i did well, i think an A is not a problem haha, this the only exam that i am very confident... hehe 2day i finish my exam in 2 hour plus then i put up my hand and hand up the answer sheet. after hand up the answer sheet then i when out from the exam hall n wait for fish and caterine coz we plan to go out for a celebration.... so i waited at the lobby for i hour plus, after they finish they come down n find me then we discuss where to go, after a dicusion we decided to go to jusco n hv something to eat bcoz we were so hungry, i think we use to much brain.... haha

when we reach jusco we when to eat pizza hut and we hv some fun playing game and we took some photo haha all this is call clebration of finish exam haha... just love it lah coz during exam we were very stress.......

me and caterine in the car park....

me and fish ........

me alone act like idiot....

after we finish we when to the cinema side to take photo.........

me, fish and caterine taking photo after eating the pizza hut we were damm full loh...... i just love the celebration coz this is the first time we eat pizza together haha......... i will cherish it hehe...... coz we all were so happy and enjoy each other company....

Paint ball fight with friend.......

2009-07-11T12:22:00.000-07:00

haha i just like the paint ball game lah love it haha.......... this was the first time i played this game i enjoy it alot. that day woke up my friend call me to go and play so i when to play with them. so when we reach there we get all the things ready to start play. u look at the gun i carry nice right? i tell u really them nice loh. there is alot of things need to get ready i hv to wear the bullet prove thing then when we go in to the field we will have to wear a face mask to protect our face from getting hurt haha.... when we all wear the mask we look like robber..... haha this game really damm fun..... after the first game i play very often........ hey guys u shd try but those who don't want to play they will miss the fun for sure.......

me n stella be4 going to the field

semester 3.....

2009-07-11T09:12:00.000-07:00

Firdaus, Ms Rachel, Ms Rebbeca and me haha

me n Ms Rachel u see so funny

haha i just like this semester, all the subject was fun and funny. no matter law, IT, QM and micro after Mr Peter change the way he teach..... i just love this sem alot.

OMG my exam suck.... i don't know wht the hell i do coz i think i will do badly this time. haiz.... QM don't know can past anot coz not everything i know how to do.... haiz the micro worse at home study the shift in the demand and supply curve but in the end i shift to my idol micheal jackson funeral. in the morning they ask me whether i got study micro i tell them that got but in the end shift to my idol funeral, they laugh like shit. as for law i screw up everything..... haiz last want IT i must target A no matter what.

exam coming............

2009-06-26T06:55:00.000-07:00

OMG exam is less then 2 week......... wht the f**k just don't know how? so stress, i am sure the whole class hv the same kind of feeling except Kumar haha........ hv been studying till late nite without fail....... i am so tired i wish to hv a gd sleep but the problem is i don't have the time to do so..... coz hv to really study damm damm hard to get the result that i want haha...... every day study non stop until me myself going to faint.... haiz hope all this will past fast.....

haha no time to sleep coz i use up my time for sleep to do other thing coz study hard u also must play hard haha i still go to watch movie with my classmate n i also go to play squash haha.... but all the thing that i do is help me to release my stress. yesterday when n play squash again alone haha my friend ask me y so poor thing go n play alone....... haha not i want to go alone coz i want to release my stress i want it to be alone haha........

Wednesday when a watch transformer haha..... not to bad but i still think the first want better..... anyway i enjoy the company of all my friend except my "friend"haha.... haiz i want the exam to over as fast as possible..... gd luck to all my friend that going to take exam.

stress stress....... exam is so near T.T

2009-06-18T05:57:00.000-07:00

exam coming very soon wht shd i do ? now i study, study and study non stop. i need a break to release my stress....... yesterday when to play squash just to release my stress after playing i feel so relief but 2day back to normal..... haiz...

my best friend mala ask me to do a time table n plan wht to study first but until now still not yet come out with the time table yet... haha but i hv been study my micro everyday without fail..... hope exam won't fail.....

as for QM i when to library to borrow a book and law too haha my best friend mala also want me to take the law book from her n study haha so i guess 2moro will go to collect it from her.

as for IT got plenty of time to study so is ok as for business communication haiz don't know wht to study also haha.....

after this i am going to take a long holiday i wish all this could past faster.....

great day i just love it...........

2009-05-30T09:54:00.000-07:00

this morning wake up when n take my bath then went out for breakfast. after breakfast friend call me to play mahjong, haha first time playing it, first few round lose money then i win then lose again in the end i lose money, but i was so happy coz i finally know how to play it^.^ we play for 4 hour plus that's was long for me but for other people are very short hehe.......

after mahjong when out with my friend to yum cha n makan, we chat alot of rubbish during the yum cha...... later finish yum cha with my friend..... then i when to yum cha with my best friend Apple coz she call, so i went yum cha with her,when yum cah with Apple that time suddenly someones appear beside me then i look at them guess wht are Nainai n Feng Xian i was so surprise n happy, i give both of them a big hug, i have not seen Nainai for half a year and Feng Xian for 2 months, OMG i miss them so much....... wow we hv a long chat until now i just got home coz we went to ZORO..... so tired 2day but i am so happy...... even we just when out to yum cha...... 2day this gathering was just only the 4 angles but i still feel happy coz the other 4 angles was busy.... so happy even the 8 angles only 4 of us are there.......

i am sure one days the 8 angles will gather together again.... it will not short of one......... i am happy 2 see them n miss them a lot.... thanks friends....

Finally got time to update my blog............

2009-05-28T10:26:00.000-07:00

was so busy for the past few day, finally can hv a gd rest and update my blog...... haha, was busy with my assignment, 2day i am relief now coz finally finish 3 assignment but 2 more assignment to go. finish the QM, Business Communication and the idiot Micro assignment, yes took me so long to finish the Mirco assignment that was the worse and damm damm hard assignment i had never done....... really f**k lah.... haha lucky the next 2 assignment is IT and Law haha i just love this 2 subject so i don't think hv any problem to finish this 2 assignment haha..... feel so relief and damm happy now.....

this sem the subject that i really enjoy are Law, IT and QM even i hate maths but i still enjoy it alot.... just now when to friend house to enjoy myself see them play mahjong but i don't know how to do coz nothing influence me to play haha........

dear dear call me to go his house to hv dinner 2moro so still thinking whether want to go a not? erm but will let him know 2moro afternoon hehe ..... this afternoon when lunch with firdaus and kumar..... we actually finish the lunch less then 2o minits OMG, wow i just can't believe it.... i never eat so fast be4 haha after finish the lunch my stomach start to pain coz i can not eat that fast haha...... anyway this few day was so bust but i feel so happy hehe........

holiday almost end..... 1 more day to go......

2009-05-15T23:04:00.000-07:00

this holiday really fun....... this week suppose to be studying at home n do some assignment, but instead of doing all this i end up doing other things. holiday almost end wht also never do except get to study some QM..... haiz if carry on like that, i will be in hot soup OMG...

this holiday keep going out with my dear until late night and in the afternoon when out with friend coz my dear got to work, he only have time to company me at nite...... for the past few day did not have a gd rest, since class going to start this monday i think i will need to have a gd rest.

yesterday when to sing until 3+am then when n eat supper with my dear reach home around 4+am sleep around 5+am, now feel so sleepy n tired. yet this morning when for my guitar lesson, but i over slept bcoz i set the alarm wrongly instead of am i set pm..... reach Yamaha got scolded by my teacher for being late.... during the lesson i am so blur until the song i don't know how to play and did not practice, haiz....... teacher scolded me like hell but i hv no choice bcoz she is my teacher, wht to do?

this holady really fun but tired... got to strat train my golf also, on the 24 may i have golf competition...... haha no matter wht i got to win that competition haha............

mid term break.......

2009-05-08T08:32:00.000-07:00

2day was the last day be4 we go for our break...... actually 2day we hv no class, but bcoz we got to cover the I.T.L up to the chapter of incapacity to be same with the group A, haha but we actually did it in 2 hours time 2day. even i hv to wake up early for this extra class but i find it fun, i can sure of want thing if 2day i miss this class i will 100% don't understand at all. haha anyway 2day class was really fun, among the 5 subject i think that the best r still IT and I.T.L other class can say ok lah ......... think that mid term break can hv a gd rest but now i don't think so, coz there is so many things to be done. haiz loaded with assignment and got to start to study some of the subject that i am not gd at all....... really feel like leave all my study and assignment a side and relax. there is so many thing which i feel like doing, feel like go to play golf everyday without fail... but to bad i can't.

haiz..... 2day after class kumar, zam, chee poh and me plan to go neighbour cafe to hv our brunch but end up we change to Vivo in jusco. so the 4 of us when to vivo just after they open for business, haha we are the first customer 2day. so we order the food that we want to eat. when we were waiting for the food we actually talk about law, i think the 4 of us study to much law until we are all crazy hehe........so after we finish our food zam say he got to go so we ask for the bil, haha guess wht finally i am not the money collector zam is the new money collector.... is kind of sad bcoz teh c and firdaus did not join us, but in the other hand our "friend" did not come along with us coz we did not tell him that we are going out n we did not invite him haha..... after the branch i can sure that kumar don't like vivo coz he wrote in his MSN msg and his blog, he really damm funny lah.

i am going to miss u guys for next week.....

haha happy happy day again..

idiot is idiot........... childish is childish... want people to respect u pls learn how to respest urself first...

2009-04-28T00:09:00.000-07:00

want me to respect u pls learn to respect urself first.......... thing u hv say is not a matter to me, but if u make me angry with u i will going to sue u for wht u hv done to me.... don't thing that u type in Chinese i don't understand, if i don't understand so wht? there still got people will tell me wht had happen actually. if u say i am childish so wht? no one will believe it coz looking at the thing u hv done, people will think that u r even more childish.......... i will make u pay for wht u hv done to me if u still continue disturb me..... wht u think? u r a younger than me i won't take legal action on u it's ? u r wrong... looking at all the thing that u hv done both parties can sue u. idiot i never reply ur msg is not i don't want to reply or i am scared, i don't want to pick up a fight with u n i am not like wht u say so y shd i reply ur msg.....but if i am so wht? there is nothing to do with u....... and make it clear my parent hv that money to let me spend so wht is none of ur concern, my parent also never say anything who the hell are u to say. anyway i am so happy when u get so angry with this and i am happy that at least now ur parent know wht type of person i am.... haha want to make me angry wait long long lah i won't fall in ur trap hehe.......... i am not idiot n stupid like u so do u think want make me angry, but now u r more angry than me, n i hear u shout on the phone like crazy, i am damm damm happy bcoz u fall to my trap stupid........ say i am un mature but everyone will think that u r talking rubish coz all of them know me well haha, but looking at the thing that u hv done i can confirm that u r 100% un mature...... happy happy day idiot fall in to my trap yes............. oops forgot already say idiot person of course will fall into my trap, haha never see such an idiot person........ i am damm damm happy bcoz everyone laughing at the thing u hv done..... do u think wht ever u hv plan will work on me....... haha is useless lah stupid ............one last time i am telling u, if u dare to this again i am going to take legal action on u...... remember this i will make u pay double...... idiot use ur brain n think idoit hahahaha.............. so happy until now.

in class not i think so bad............

2009-04-23T21:19:00.000-07:00

i was saying that in class i am always alone or can say i don't want to mix with them, but i don't think so now. even most of my classmates are so childish but few of them are ok. recently i mix with Firdaus, Kumar, Chee poh, Zam n Teh Chong thay are all ok n they look more mature n they r all very friendly. even all of them are boys but i think this is not a problem, i happy with them most of the time. we went for lunch and movie. haha i enjoy the time with them i feel comfortable with them. guys thanks man i really enjoy it so much.... haha kumar i wrote a new blog agian so don't say i never post any blog haha............

i want to be perfect coz i am not perfect enough……. n i want the world to be fair

2009-04-23T08:53:00.000-07:00

Amazing
Lovely
Independent
Caring
Expert

the word on top there hv it’s own special meaning….. i am not perfect enough is bcoz i am not Amazing, Lovely, Independent, Caring, Expert. if i hv all this i will be very happy……..haha but now i am trying to hv this 5 word so i will be perfect…………..^.^

I have everything,
everything i want sure i will get it,
but there is something,
no matter how i try,
i will never get it,
even myself also don’t y,
but i am sure i will get this 1 day,
bcoz i am a person that,
what everthings i want sure i will get it.

as i always say there is nothing can’t be solve by me…….. no matter wht i will solve it for sure i will never let this to slip away from me .

Life is so short,
why can’t we be happy,
why we can’t have the things that we want,
why no matter how hard we work for it,
we will never get it,
why the god is so unfair to us,
why,
there is so many why,
which i can’t solve it,
this world is not fair,
since life is so short,
i want my life to be happy,
why because we don’t know,
what will happen tomorrow,
you might see me alive today,
but maybe tomorrow you will hear,
that i have passed away,
so thing can not be judge at all,
so if in this case why we can’t be happy……….

everyone hope to be perfect….. but sometime u just don’t know wht to do as for me i hope that i can meet the target i hv set for myself…………..

i am not perfect,
but i am trying to reach a perfect point,
that i have set for myself,
I want to be Amazing,
I want to be Lovely,
I want to be Independent,
I want to be Caring,
and I want to be Expert…

hope that soon i can meet this target…………………….

Special gift from god...........

2009-04-23T08:49:00.000-07:00

I am such a lucky person, bcoz the god had gaveme alot of precious gift… the first gift i hv from god is i am born in such a gd family n i hv such a nice family, my parent both love me so much since young until now, they hv take gd care of me n they always try their best to give me the best thing in the world. without my parent i won’ be in this world. since i was born until now they always be my side until now. they r such a great parents. they r the best. i will cherish all the things they hv done for me. thanks to my dad n mom, i love you all so much……………………… i will always remember this word FAMILY it stand for Father n Mother i love you…………haha n my brother too
the second gift i have from the god is i hv know a group of nice friends….. they always here when i need help.. haha but that is what friend are for. without them life are so boring, i feel so comfortable when i am with them ok i will write them out 1 by 1,
Peggy is a friend i hv know her for about 4 to 5 years….. we know each other through a friend now me n her has become best buddy. i still can remember the first time we when out to yum cha together n after the first we yum cha we slowly get to know each other slowly by slowly until now we are very very gd friend, we can talk about anything n we also can share our secret together. haha when she has problem she will come to me when i hv problem i will go to find her for help. i miss our day together, so much…………but to bad she is married n she has a child, so she is busy with her family n her career. but when she is free she will still company me……i am glad that we hv a chance to know each other…….
Mala Nathan she is a lawyer, i hv know her when i was 13 years old, i still remember that we know each other through a golf competition haha n that was the first time we play competition together but i never talk to her bcoz she look so scary haha, the hold competition i never talk with her but things change later on. Things really change alot me n Mala now become very gd friend, she always treat me very gd n she also teach me alot of thing ………..haha n she always expect me to do wht hv she done, so some time i feel very stress…………but i know she did this for my gd haha……….. i really need to say thanks to her.
Apple Chai haha about this person i know her for about 8 year, since we know each other we hv been fighting all the time. I shd say that we r like enemy, so we hardly talk to each other, haha but last year we contact back, now we both become very gd friend. I enjoy the time with her bcoz me n her character look alike so we can go along well. Thanks for being my friend ………………….
Alice Chia i only know her less than half a year i guess, she is very adorable, nice, cute, smart and caring……………haha we know each other through apple. I still remember the time we celebrate her birthday……….in Desaru, City square n Neway………. after her birthday we when to Melaka together, that was the first time i when Melaka with my friends, i enjoy the trip so much coz i hv a gd company from her n other friends. even i am so tired coz i hv to drive haha…………but this was a unforgettable memory for me.. i will never forget this………..thanks for giving me a nice memory………….
Feng Xian, she is also a gd friend of mine, we study in the same secondary school, but we never talk to each other, i just know that we r school mates, but after so long, i call apple out to yum cha then apple call feng xian too so that was the first time we talk n yum cha haha the feeling was so weird…… but remember the first time we when yum cha is in setia indah cafe. After the yum cha we start to go out together often n we also play badminton together n we also go Melaka n desaru so enjoy………. i am really enjoy the time we r so playful n the time we together…………
As for my other friend like Kelly, Jia Xin, gao mei n Nainai also my gd friend, but i only know them for less then half a year, but we actually get along very well……… they also give me alot of unforgettable memory………………….. as i say the time that we all together is really a nice memory i will never ever forget…………thanks guys i am so lucky to know u guys…………….
Since i am so lucky n i hv so many precious gifst from the god, i shd not be complaining i must be thankful………………… haha so i will treasure all the thing that i hv now n thanks for being here when i need help………….. i am very very happy………….thanks love all of u………….
Treasure what you have now,
Don’t be so greedy,
Stop complain,
Must appreciate all the thing you have,
Because not everyone like us so fortune,
I still think the world is still fair,
If not I won’t have such a nice family,
And I won’t have a group of buddy,
Must be thankful………………….

new sem has just started not long……but i am already in trouble…….

2009-04-23T08:45:00.000-07:00

this sem has just started for about 2 weeks, but it looks llike i am already very stress. 5 subject for this sem, all the subject is so boring and sian, i just hate QM bcoz of the numbers i hate numbers. and as for law even worse i totally don’t understand it just like killing me. as for microeconimic, the lecturer sucks, he teach with his own slide but the slide is totally diffrent from our note so when i want to refer it is so hard. IT i still think ok but whether can pass with flying colour still not sure. business communication is kind of easy, but to cope 5 subject in a sem is not easy.
this suppose to be a long sem but for me i think that this is not a long sem coz the things we need to cover are to much. in such a short time to cover all is really really very hard haha…………..i want die le lah. noone can save me only myself can save myself.
lucky that law i hv my friend to help me with, although she is abit kind of fierce but she really help me alot, at least now i understand some of the law. but is also stress to hv her to be my tuition coz she like to ask question. sometime i just can’t answer coz i am a bit slow i need time some time to go back and read. but want things after she gave me tuition i understand better.
don’t know how will this sem turn out to be……………….just hope that i can do well……..

Parent are so great...........

2009-04-23T08:39:00.000-07:00

I feel that parent is so great. Why coz they always try their best to raise us up, no matter how hard they have to work. And being a parent is not as easy as you think. Every parent love the children so much, no matter what the children have done they will try the best to correct them. Our parent let us study and give us everything we want. So we must try the best to do what they like, don’t do what they don’t like us to do. Because without our father and mother we won’t be in this world. So we must be thankful to them. We must replay their kindness, tolerance, the whole life for taking care of us and raise us up to become an adult. You imagine the time and money they spend on us, is not little but a lot. No matter how old are we, in the parent eyes we r still their baby. They always protect us from getting bully or hurt. So u can see parent are so great. No matter what we must be thankful and appreciate what we have. Do remember parent is very important. And remember must replay them when they are old.

Do we look like a happy family? Of course. But sometime I will think that, have I done some things that can make them proud and have I really make them feel happy. I was thinking that, what can make them feel happy. What I can do is,study hard and don’t do the things they don’t like. Because we children also need to do something for the parent to make the family look warm and happy. If you want to clap you need to use two hand to make the sound, so it is the same idea of making the family happy and warm. I feel that my parents are so great because they love me so much and the thing they have done to me you can’t count at all. They always try to teach me the right way to do, and they always plan my life for me. I really appreciate what they have done for me. Thanks for giving me a happy and warm family.

enjoyable time with my baby………….

2009-04-23T08:36:00.000-07:00

yes, i can say that, i am damm happy when i am with my baby and i appreciate wht she have done for me……. i am such lucky to know my baby… i really love my baby so much………
so far we get to know each other only for less than a year but the time we together r really a damm damm precious time n memory haha……. when the first time we start our relationship on 26 october 2008 in a mamak ,but when say this people will feel weird but to me it is so special….
all this while our relation ship r going very steady, n we always spend the time together, i think i shd say almost everyday…. so far this 1 month+ we really enjoy ourself so much. i still remeber the time we hv lunch together during the lunch time in the car it was so romantic…… hehe not everybody can do that, n most of the time at nite we will hv dinner together.
if my baby comfirm we are planing to drive all the way up from JB to Penang to hv our holiday together. we plan to hv a 2 weeks holiday….. but we still hv to wait n see, whether can take such a long off… but anyway if this time can not, we can always arrange another time haha…..
that day, i bring my baby to the Friday, to hv cocktail and hv dinner there, my baby was so happy n i gave my baby a present….. my baby was so happy…. i never see my baby so happy before…..
i wait for her to finish her thing, then i went to pick her up, then we went zoro to hv dinner then after we finish our dinner, we went to dangha bay to hv some fun there……… we play all the things in danga bay and after that we hv enough fun in danga bay, we went to de bali in town to hv a drink we order 4 type of cocktail there n hv some finger food over there, we actually feel abit blur after the cocktail……. after we finish our drink we plan to go home……. so we reach home around 2+ hehe… so my baby was to sleepy so after bath, she went to sleep but be4 sleep she gave me a kiss n say to me thanks for all the things i hv done for her, i was so touch haha………. there is alot of precious moment but really to lazy to write……so will stop here.
baby i love u some much……….

i really don't know wht to do...........i am really tired of this i can take it anymore..........i am going to crazy soon

2008-11-05T09:01:00.000-08:00

Everyone have a family,
I have a family too,
But went i look at other people family,
I feel so warmth,
But why when i look at my family,
I feel so unhappy,
Everyone can have a nice chat with their parent,
Why my parent can’t...................
when i was young that time,
how much u love me,
how u take care of me,
how much u love me n dote me......
i will never forget.
But that was how long ago i can't remember already,
can anyone tell me when was the last time u kiss me,
when was last time u hold my hand.........

i am totally lost. my house is just like a hotel to me now bcoz i can't find any warm in this house........ the adult only now how to complain about us, but hv they really ask or try to understand wht we want.... they never, they only know how to say do this do that.....
as for me, now i only can see that in their heart only got my brother, i am like a visible in this house or i shd say i am a outsider, i am so lost when i feel this, but nobody understand how i feel. i know when i say this my parent will say no u r not, n they will say that is my problem not thier problem......sometime i can't understand y the adults only now how to say but they never ever try to understand, they will always think that their always right. since i when back to sunway to study they never ever ask me how was my day in collage they will always say u better get gd grade if not i got to pay money.........they only scared that if i fail they hv to pay money, they only scared of thier money, sometime i still think that whether to study is a gd thing or a bad thing, even like now sometime i try to ask help from my dad, he refuse to help me, he is smart but he just don't want to help me. n they i very gd at saying 1 word i don't know then everything settle. if my dad not educated he say don't know i still can accept, but he is well educated......... i really don't know wht i shd do.....

sometime do u really think i want to go out, haha actually i rather stay at home rather going out, but sometime i just hv no choice bcoz i just don't want to stay at home bczo if i stay at home i will 100% fight with them so to avoid this so i go out.... they always complain that i treat outside people very nice y treat then not nice, bcoz at least outside people will help me......
i am not trying to say they r not gd but the problem is now they really never try to understand wht i am thinking.... i really hope that 1 day i can find back the feeling i use to hv last time........i still remember how he kiss me every nite, how much he love me n how gd he take care of me, but now all this is only a memory it is all gone. i really feel that the dad i use to hv is gone, now every day we speak to each other is less than 10 word sometimes not even a word, bcoz if we talk we will fight, they always say is my problem, but hv they ever think y i can become like that..........

somatime i feel like just end my life so i no need to think of anything, 1day i will go crazy is bcoz of u all, wht i want is simple only, i just want more concern from u all will do.............

How i wish i have a happy family,
Do you know how i feel when,
I look at other people parent,
Do you know how much love i need,
Do you know how i feel when,
Yours eyes only have brother,
Do you know that you all are a stranger to me,
Do you know when i was bad mood i can’t even talk to you all,
Do you know a not i just want to have the family warm,
We use to have last time,
How i wish all this can come back................

Do you know how much i love you all, but sometime i jsut don't know how to say........ Do u know wht does the FAMILY word means:
Father and Mother I Love you...............

Out to all my friend.......

2008-11-02T23:33:00.000-08:00

i really enjoy the time when all of us r together, n i cherish all the happiness we hv togeher. although some of u i only know, u all about less then a year but the time i with u guys r vey happy.....................

Friend are like star,

Can not be seen,

But it will always be with you forever,

No matter how far you go they will by your side.

So if a have i piece of Oreo Cookies,

I will Break it into half,

And i will give my friend the creamy side,

Because all my friends are so sweet

I am glad that i have a group of nice friend.

i want to thanks all my friends. without u all my life won't be so colorful n joyful. there are:

Mala Nathan
Mei Lee
Ailin
AliceChia
Apple Chai
Gao Mei
Jia Xin
Kelly
Feng Xian
Nai Nai
Peggy

i believe in fate bcoz, if there is no fate i will not get to know all of u and we can't be friend. everyone can be friend but to find a really gd friend is not easy at all.......but i am such a luckly person bcoz i hv found a group of friends like u guys. thanks for being my friend.......... if there is something that i hv done wrong or which u all don't like i am here to ask for forgiveness...........

I hope our friendship will be on forever, i will always remember that i hv a group of gd friend like u guys. thanks

Mystery Person............Annie

2008-11-02T23:31:00.000-08:00

it hv been awhile that i know this annie….. i am trying very hard to be her best friend but the problem is no matter how i try we will hv a barrier between me n her. maybe bcoz she is much older than me but to me age is not a problem, n the worse thing is bcoz of her, i hv a misunderstanding between me n my friend…… am i wrong to admire n try my best to be gd friend with someone? i really don’t know y my life hv change suddenly just bcoz of this mystery person some time i really wish to know, wht i shd do to make sure every things i do r perfect…….. i really hope that one day she will understand how i feel but the problem is i hv done something wrong which myself also don’t know how to make a turn back……. i am so lost n down…… wht i know now me n this mystery person need to hv an end… otherwise it will coz me to hv more misunderstanding between me n my friend……i hope that the friend that misunderstand me will talk to me again n i hope that we can be like last time so happy………………. i admire annie so much but now is the end of this mystery person……

Friends

2008-10-24T09:51:00.000-07:00

Mystery Person

I hv know a girl for about 6 month, i guess? the first time i meet her i think she is just a very normal person n nothing special of her but until this few week i finally realize that she is a very smart n brilliant person. I can say that nobody in this world is perfect but to me she is very perfect. I don't know why she can be so perfect................ haha to me lah, but i don't now how the other think of her but to me she is 100% a perfect person. She is smart, helpful, kindhearted and she has a very strong leader ship too. She seems to know a lot of thing n she like to help those people who r in trouble, but she is very gd at nagging thats her style. I admire her a lot if i can be like her so perfect i will be very very happy haha................... but for now me n this mystery person, just friend only i guess? i don't know how she think of our friendship, i only now that i hv already treat her as my best friend. but if she still treat me as a normal friend, i will try hard to change our friendship n make sure that our friendship will go on forever till the end of my life................. when the times come i will tell who she is, but it depends on her too..............or can try to guess too. but i hope not the mystery person who guess but she is also allowed to guess...........friends forever !!!!! i will cherish the time we hv together...........hope the mystery person would now my thinking.......................................

Today 24 October

I hv a good time with my friend i really enjoy myself thanks to them. We hv spend the time in few places ...............haha i really enjoy it first we when to Royal Johor yo hv lunch then we when to kelly shop and play game together with Jia Xin, then we when to Anjung Warisan to hv a drink n hv some finger food there, haha be4 sending Jia Xin home we when to Danga Bay to walk but in the end we actually decided to ride a bicycle........ we end up very tired n sweating, but i really enjoy the ride with them although it is very tired thank to my friend to company for that long............thanks love u guys

Joycelyn ^^ (Happy Life)

2008-10-23T10:19:00.000-07:00

Precious Moment

In my life i never been so happy be4, until i know them......... they all r my best friend, without them my life will not be so joyful. i really want to thanks :-

Alice Chia
Hoong Hoong
Feng Xian
Jia Xin
Kelly
Gao Mei
Nai Nai

the time we spend together is very little, but the time when we together I will cherish every hour, every minute, and every second................ sometime I do think that we hv a chance to be friend we really need to cherish it bcoz all this r fate, god give us a chance to meet each other bcoz we the past we r all related, i guess. My precious moment with them really really exciting n fun............ y ? bcoz we go on a short trip to Desaru n Melaka together i really enjoy it myself bcoz all of them r very playfull too. haha..........n we also celebrate each other birthday together............. No matter how far r we, we will always be together forever...............^.^

Thanks to all of u.........^^ Friends forever...................^^ Nothing going to change our friendship....................^.^

Important Person in My Life

I am very lucky, coz i hv know 2 person, they r kind n really help me a lot......both of them look a like, the 2 of them very helpful n kind hearted.................... both of them don't like smoking people n of course they hate i smoke. they r important to me bcoz they hv teach me alot of thing which i don't know n can't see. haha i also admire both of them alot.....................................no matter wht i still want to say thanks to them. i will cherish wht i hv now.