It had been long i did not write a blog.... once i write blog...... It always not a good thing... because bad thing happen again.... to me.... actually this blog was wrote... for 2 person....haha...... seriously..... I am tired of explain everything over and over again...... I do not know maybe i am the one in wrong..... I don't know why things turn out to be this way..... i am just wondering... maybe it was my problem.... i do not know how to start......
Anyway... I would just start of with the first... friend which I care the most.... but I do not know why she keep on misunderstand me.... i am just being curious..... seriously i do not know how to solve it....I have already.... clarify... but ended up it go back to the same problem again and again...... I treat her good the only intention... is because i care this friendship so much.... but it ended up to me a misunderstand..... I wonder cherish a friendship it's wrong... being good to friend it's good??? i am just wondering this particular question over and over again..... if being good to a friend..... or concern... friend means that... i wanna to date... the friends...... if in this case..... that's mean i am very busy loh.... cause I am busy dating with all my other friends... too......anyway i have already say that..... I treat you good and concern you is because.... I care a lot about this friendship..... but i do not know why it always ended up to be.... a misunderstand......maybe having a face like a guy..... cut hair short is a criminal....that's why make so much thing to happen....... i don't know how many time I wanna say..... I am tired of explain.... things that you worry about.... it would not happen for sure... because... it is totally not impossible......If i really have that intention to date you... I do not need to wait till today......i would done it earlier..... I really only treat you as a good friend...... best friend.... special friend.....and close friend...... Seriously.... friend if you really have doubt..... or any barrier... you can always just ask me........ I really do not want you my friend to have any barrier or doubt..... on me.... If you think the way I treat you make you feel any misunderstand.... I would just stop... or if you feel that... I am causing you any trouble..... I would just disappear...... anyway.... i hope that..... if you are not sure of anything... or what ever you can just ask me..... as I say this friendship is important to me.... so I would wanna clear your doubt and carry on with this friendship...... but decision is still yours.....
The second person..... I know you not very long...... I do not know what make you think so.... and said that.... kind .... of things..... but i just wanna say that... If you really think so.... and I make you have such feeling then.... I say sorry to you...... because I do not have such intention..... once again.... I am being misunderstand...... again .....but is just being misunderstand on a different situation...... I treat you as a friend..... but you think that.... i make you as a tool..... do you know how hurt it is when.... i regard you as a friend...... btw..... i do not want to explain anymore.... cause..... i find it hurt when i try to explain every single thing......anyway friend..... i really do not want to say anything else anymore..... just wanna clarify once more..... I do not have any intention as what you think.......
To the both of you..... if you still have doubt.... on anything... or you wanna ask anything...I would tell.....but stop simply think....I am really tired of being misunderstand....... Do you guys know how hurt it is... when a person truly..... care concern and regard someone as a friend.... but in the end it is being... misunderstand.... and being think as such a person??? anyway... if the both of you think I cause so many trouble.... just tell me I would just disappear...... from both of your sight.... i would not give any problem to the both of you...... anymore....... I am really tired of explain and explain... worried and worried......
