Monday, November 2, 2009

lost n don't know wht i sh do....

Why now only she know me?
Why she everything also never tell me?
Why i can't give her the best thing in this world?
Why i don't have the ability to buy the things that she wants?
Why i can't make her happy?
Why i can't guess what is on her mind?
Why i can't be the person that always make her laugh?
Why i can't solve her problem?
Why am i so hopeless ?
Why am i so useless?
Why my ability is limited?

There is so many why that can't be solve.... i was thinking why, why, why and why .... i feel sorry for her... i am not a good sister for her because i can't give her anything at all... i can't make her happy and smile always... why i am so hopeless... i was thinking last nite.... if she had know me earlier than that idiot person, i hv no problem giving her anything... but why she know me so late why.... sometime i feel that god like to make fun of people... but in other hand it is also a good thing because god make this arrangment 100% hv it's on reason.... i may not be able to give her the best thing now, but one day i will hv the ability to give her the best thing in the world, the god gave me a good present that's her... lots of thing she tell me i can't help her just bcoz of my limited ability.... i wan asking myself wht i hv give her..... nothing...i always say want to make her happy but nothing i give her........ no matter what i wll try to give her the best once i hv the ability... for the time bieng u just got to bear with me ok.... love u jie..... n miss u......